Mommy Fabulous!

I have moved!!!

2008-11-25T04:38:00.001Z

Am now residing here...

spoilt weekend

2008-11-15T13:28:00.002Z

perhaps everytime we approach the weekend.. i have something in mind.. eventhough i know it might not materialize... i still have the hope that it may work out the way i want it.. and i guess i had one before weekend starts.. and it's now saturday night.. and i think it's not working the way i want it to be.. cause i'm beyond frustrated..

Not for the faint hearted

2008-11-04T00:21:00.003Z

Travelling with a toddler is not as easy as it seems..Especially when we were on the 6.40 am flight which means i had to wake up at 4.30 am, which resulted in ammar's waking up at 4.45 am.. not happy as always cause he still needs another 2 hours of sleep..

And the subang airport is not much help either.. under renovation, seating area is very sikit.. and we had to wait until 6 am only to be able to masuk the boarding area and allow me to pray.. and praying subuh while ensuring ammar is safe is another thing.. thank god he was happily strapped in the stroller.. and then when he finally fell asleep again before boarding.. 5 mins later.. we have to board the plane. so i had to carry a sleeping ammar on one hand, diaper bag on the same hand.. and close my stroller with another hand.. leading ammar to be awake again! so we spent almost the whole journey with ammar being mr mayor and saying hi to all the stewardess.. eating muffin until the whole place is so semak that this mommy had to wipe everything.. and finally, about 5 mins before landing, he fell asleep..

again, had to angkat the boy while he's sleeping all the way to the terminal which is only accessible by double flight staircase! lucky me there's a pakcik whose kind enough to carry the stroller for me.. afterwards it is much easier.. me finding the taxi counter.. carry ammar to the taxi.. put him in while he's still sleeping.. close the stroller.. and enjoy the 30-min cab ride until we reach the hotel..

since ammar is already on formula but still feed from me at night, i pack everything in my diaper bag..including air panas, air masak, crackers, milk.. including extra diaper, extra clothes for him.. for me.. ive got it all covered from all aspects.. but it was quite difficult getting him to drink his milk from the bottle when everything is hectic and chaotic.. feeding him directly is definitely the ultimate thing! makes everything MUCH EASIER!!

But i have learned the art of making muka selamba when ammar's crying like there's no tomorrow because he's cranky or he wants to do something yang tak boleh dibuat.. and everyone looking at you like you are the evil mother.. oh well.. they just have to live with it!

But penang trip was fun! more on that laterssss

rantings by the mommy

2008-10-29T00:28:00.002Z

dah 4 hari KL tak hujan... panasnyaaaa.... tido malam walaupon ber aircond masih boleh rasa bahang.. tak keruan jadiknya.. i really really prefer the rainy season than the hot and dry.. sebab kalau hujan boleh masuk bawah duvet and tido! bliss nyer perasaan tu. kalau panas.. tido pon sakit kepala.. tgk tv pon berpeluh2.. nak masak? lagi laa menambahkan kepanasan...

on a different note, shopped like crazy during the weekend.. MPH warehouse sale was awesome!!! bought a gazillion books at a fraction of their original price.. gumbira gumbira!!! i got the book by jo frost, the supernanny.. the go green book - gorgeously green.. and many many moree.. kepuasan hati yang tidak terhingga.. Metrojaya warehouse sale sangat padat dan mampat! kalau stadium tu runtuh atau terbakar, memang sangat la tak selamat.. the price was okay okay jer.. cause the next day tu.. similar price for similar items at the curve living quarters punya sale.. buang masa saja saya ke shah alam..

and we went to the zoo!!! yang agak smelly.. maybe because of the heat? busuknya sangat membuatkan nak termuntah.. conclusion? ammar is a tad too small for the zoo.. we were the excited ones showing him elephant and giraffe and tiger.. he is only interested in the birds!!! so i guess bird park is next in the agenda..

hubby left for penang this morning.. so im bunking at mom and dad's .. penakut tak saya nih??? ada kemudahan.. gunakanlah... but come saturday, we'll join him too!!! nak pekena nasi kandar laa.. any other food suggestion??? in the melantak mode.. plus buy cheap dvds!! hehehehe

sekali lagi maid telah berjaya menaikkan kemarahan ku.. sungguh pandai menjawab maid ini.. nasibla saya jenis tak reti nak maki.. ada ke patut die cakap barang rosak sebab memang dah nak rosak?? padahal die buat kerja macam gergasi! kelentung kelentang sana sini... hishhh sabar je laa.. kan ke best kalau tak payah ada maid tapi ada nursery yg okay??? dilema dilema..

shopping shopping shopping

2008-10-24T01:07:00.000+01:00

This weekend is a warehouse sale weekend.. yippeeeeeee!!!!

Early next morning, MUST go early to MPH warehouse sale.. must find good books at cheap price for myself and Ammar.. should we bring ammar along??? hmmm... that remains a question

Metrojaya sale at shah alam.. must go and buy perfume and cushions.. hopefully ada la...

and tonite?? monthly grocery shopping at tesco!!! lets hope hubby comes home early! :-)

penang trip.. i want!!!

2008-10-22T01:32:00.002+01:00

Hmm.. lama pulak rasanya tak update.. what have we done so far?

Last weekend, proses penggantungan gambar2 oil painting yang dibeli di Bali.. bestnyerrrrr.... atleast some of my walls are not that kosong anymore.. and i managed to do a drilling session with my maid.. basically, i showed her all the nitty gritty things that i dont like.. like the habuk2 at places yg org tak nampak but i know is there... and i have made new sets of timetable for her.. all the laundry that has to be handwashed will be washed at my mom's place when ammar is asleep.. so by the time i come back, those are already ironed and done.. at home, she just have to settle baju2 yang machine washed.. which is not that often.. once in 2 or 3 days.. at other times when she has nothing to do at night.. she cleans the house (not mopping or menyapu) but more of the small2 things like lap2 furniture and things like that..

As a result, i think this week my house is spick and span!!! best gilerr okay bile tau kalau lalukan jari dekat mana2 area utk spot check takde habuk! and she still gets to sleep at 9 pm which is freakishly early! which is almost the same as ammar's night time..

hubby will be going to Penang next week for a PK PC conference again! really want to come along but next week is quite a full week for me.. the only way is to go there on saturday and come back sunday.. with ammar in tow of course.. so if jadi, this is the first time i'll be travelling with ammar alone naik flight.. hmm.. lets see how that goes!

ratatouile??? NON!!!

2008-10-15T07:20:00.003+01:00

I hate tikus!!! and unfortunately my house had been infested with them!! :-(

my fault really.. when the bi-monthly pest control guy came last two months, i personally said to them, im stopping the rat and lipas thingy cause im afraid ammar would find the poison and eat them.. without us noticing... and one month after that... tikus bermaharajalela di rumah ku!! i noticed it when i was kemasing the store.. but couldnt find it.. and then, one nite, when i was in the kitchen... panggil hubby and we managed to kill this rat... ingatkan dah settle.. tapi after the bali trip, hubby said he saw two but only managed to kill one at 3 am in the morning!!!! euuuww...

so monday, i called the pest control and we resume the normal tikus poison and hide it carefully so that ammar wont makan.. but last night.. i heard them running on my ceiling!!! huhuhuhu... stress nyerrrrr................. going to sleep, on alarm.. and 10 mins later... alarm berbunyi dgn sangat kuatnya cause the sensor kat roof tu detect the stupid rats running around.. it's already been a few times that the alarm went off because of rats!!!

the pest control guy said it will take a couple of days before the rats actually eat the poison.. so we have to be patient.. :-( geli!!!!!!!! i cant wait for this ordeal to be over!!!

Bali 2008 Pictures

2008-10-14T07:31:00.006+01:00

Arrived at Bali Ngurah Rai airport

Cultural Park dgn background Garuda gergasi

Si kecik yang tak takut pon dengan Barong dance punya binatang

Uluwatu

Another Uluwatu shot Jimbaran Sunset Dinner Paddy terrace Tanah Lot

Saaaayang anak mommy!!

Bali 2008

2008-10-14T07:10:00.004+01:00

Bali was super FUN!!!! it was a great holiday and we certainly did not waste any minute of it!!!

Day 1

Our flight was retimed earlier... something which we do not mind at all.. cause that means.. MORE TIME holidaying!! we had to be a bit kiasu cause we are travelling with three kids! tapi takde lah sampai nak queue half an hour before! we just sit betul2 kat depan so that bila org queue je, senang nak ke depan.. flight was full but luckily dapat sit together2.. Ammar was active on the plane.. tido kejap jer... so we had to layan him the rest of the day...

Sampai airport, bro-in-law waited for us cause he arrived a day earlier.. with the driver.. then off to lunch.. check in at hotel yang best!! Bali Desa at Nusa Dua.. and then terus ke cultural park.. great view from there.. and then off to Uluwatu.. to the temple near a cliff.. wah.. cantik bangat!!!! very beautiful view.. although ada banyak monyet! yang terrer ambik specs org.. we skipped sunset to eat at jimbaran beach.. i wanted to watch the kecak dance but seeing that it is done during sunset so mcm time maghrib and ada kids, takut nanti they all meragam plak.. so maybe another trip lahh

Sunset dinner at Jimbaran sedap!!but a little bit pricey.. ammar was asleep most of the time sampai we all habis makan.. after dinner, we went to find a tailor.. cause org kata murah nak buat suit but cannot find a cheap one.. then we went to Kg Bali for shopping.. sikit jer.. belum full force.. we arrived at the hotel dah malam.. penat giler..and tido!!!

Day 2
After subuh, we went for jalan2 at the beach.. sangat lawa... and then mandi swimming pool.. and then breakfast.. then we head to Kintamani.. but drop by Ubud to buy oil painting.. i bought tonnes of oil painting utk mendecor rumah.. best best!!! and the price is even cheaper than Ikea's printed printing.. tak sabar nak gantung2 gambar dekat dinding rumah ku yang kosong tuh.. :-) then off to kintamani to view Mount Batur, a still active volcano.. on the way back, singgah kat rice terrace... and then we went straight to Tanah Lot for sunset.. pon cantik jugak! sigh.. Bali has really beautiful sceneries.. after Tanah Lot.. SPA time!!!! hubby and me took the couple's spa package.. i paid sthing like RM160 for foot bath, massage, scrub, yogurt mask, facial and flower bath... murah gilerrrrr.... ammar was babysit by my bro-in-law.. so we are free for about two hours. sampai hotel, ammar dah tido...

Day 3
Another morning spent a the beach,, this time, i went in for a dip.. and then again dekat swimming pool.. itinerary for the day, shopping aje.. so not ina hurry sangat..w e shopped for souvenirs at denpasar.. and later went to Kuta.. balik hotel, mandi and kemas.. off to airport.. ammar was asleep the whole flight.. so me and hubby got the chance to sleep!! hehehe...

All in all... Bali holiday sangat best!!!! very highly recommended.. plus, our driver was very helpful!! jugak sgt direcommend..

My take on travelling with babies? can be done! and thank God for the baby carrier and stroller ku yg superlight! senang sangat nak bawak jalan! altho preparationnya lebih la.. their food and diaper and the like.. but very possible.. if only we brought along our car seat..life would be much easier! :-)

so, next destination???

* AseanIndulgence has new collections... :-) very beautiful designs.. will update once i have upload on the website.. belum letak pon dah jual 3!!! hehehe

Holiday .. here i come!!

2008-10-09T15:46:00.002+01:00

Alrighty...

the bags are almost packed.....
the money have been changed...
camera is charging....

See ya peeps Sunday nite!!!

Please pray for our safe trip, kay!

9 years!!!

2008-10-09T01:12:00.002+01:00

Today is our 9 years' of being together anniversary.. and the celebration??? Off to the island tomorrow!! woohooo... tak sabar... i had done my first round of packing last night.. my oh my... banyaknya barang! both of us try to travel light as often as we can.. tapi quite difficult la.. all the makeups and toiletries.. add on ammar's stuff?? the pampers dah take up space.. belum masuk all his food.. berbotol2 ok.. i wouldnt want to risk ammar so i'd rather pack all his food!! and travelling with air asia ni macam tak membantu sungguh.. we have to check in stroller with limited liability! haiyoooo... if anything happens to the stroller, how???? oh well.. lets pray and hope for the best!

But I am super thrilled!!! dah lama tak ber holiday.. and I am planning for the next one! heehehhe... this time, it will be local.. and if we can get this particular place, perhaps I will ask hubby to ajak his adik beradik.. lagi ramai, lagi pening.. tapi lagi kecoh! and lebih banyak gossip.. hehehehe

altho i'd love to use more of our passports.. current economic condition and most importantly, our household income tidak membenarkan kami ke negara2 yang nun jauh di mata... hmmphh... plus, there are just so many things to spend money on.. like education fund, insurance, home decor items, new camera, new fridge and island kitchen?? hik hik hik.. tunggu durian runtuh laa....

on a different note, kenapa lelaki2 malaysia sungguh tak gentleman dalam LRT? at one time, all 5 seats in front of me were occupied by big strong men.. and men jugak la yang berebut2 tempat kat dalam LRT. what happened to our malaysian men?? ada la a few yang gentleman.. tapi boleh dikira dgn jari!!! rasa macam nak sound jer mamat2 yang hampeh nih.. kesian gf atau wife they all.. entah entah angkat groceries pon tak! :-p

Wishlist

2008-10-07T01:13:00.003+01:00

A note to self: Please save money each month so i can buy the following:

Double door fridge to store all the healthy food i intend to consume and also 2 weeks worth of frozen home cooked dinners

and

Island kitchen with black granite top and white cupboard doors

bila la agaknya impian akan jadi reality???

Our First Raya at Ammar's Tok and Opah's

2008-10-03T02:12:00.003+01:00

Raya was fun!!! We went back to hubby's kampung Monday nite.. traffic was not bad, plus we used jalan dalam so probably that's another reason lah.. i spent the day before raya taking care of little ammar.. hence escaping the dapur work.. hehehe.. tapi when ammar nap, managed to help making kuah kacang and try to remember the recipe sebab hubby macam agak determined je wife nya ni tau masakan mak dier... hubby menganyam ketupat bawang dengan hebat nya.. i tried to.. but failed! heheheh... all in all, i think hubby spent more time in the kitchen! ngeh ngeh ngeh... u r such a good son!! kalau la honey macam tu jugak kat no 1, seronotnyaaa!! hehehe

raya morning, i woke up early to prepare kuah lodeh aka lontong.. since the perakians dont eat lontong, it is up to me lah nak masak.. and since it's my tekak pon yang nak makan, jalan saje... nasib jadik! kalau tak, rugi santan yang kelapanya dikukur mak mertua saya! eheheh... jawa ni memang nak makan lontong je time raya.. solat raya was at the masjid besar.. ok lah.. sedap jugak pak imam tu baca..then.. balik MAKAN!!!!! sedapnyaaaa macam org tak makan 10 tahun.. ketupat, lemang, rendang... macam macam!!!

after that we took our raya pics.. which i have not yet transferred from my camera.. and then off to kubur to visit arwah adik my hubby and a few uncles who had passed away tahun nih.. petang raya, tergolek dog dekat depan tv.. thank god for the aircond.. tak sakit kepala!!!

second raya morning we took ammar on the motor kapcai... kampung style!!! gile bahaya tapi just satu round and i told hubby to bawak slow giler.. ye la.. helmet pon tarak! tapi mamat kecik ni excited giler... jakun!!! tak pernah naik motor! we came back last night.. survived the heavy traffic.. tapi sungguh la penat!

ammar was excited tgk ayam, angsa... main periuk belanga. jumpa cousin2... itu pon majority tak balik lagi.. today baru penuh my mother in law punya rumah.. but we are already back in kl.. takpe la.. ramai2 pon payah.. pening!!! nak cari tempat landing pon susah.. hehe..

all in all, a very eventful raya! and i managed to tangkap gambar this time around.. :-) altho im back in office and fasting (due to the massive food indulgence).. i am still in my raya mood! esok raya my mom's house plak.. boleh collect duit raya ammar! hehehehehe

how's your raya?

Eid Mubarak

2008-09-29T09:39:00.002+01:00

Selamat Hari Raya and Maaf Zahir Batin to all
May this raya adds more joyful memories..

Drive safely!

cant wait to makan rendang and ketupat!! yummy.... habis la diet ku....

2 days to raya

2008-09-29T04:28:00.002+01:00

and i am still in the office. decided not to take leave today since we are leaving tonite.. yup, this is my first raya at my in-laws.. i have packed, 50% of the things i need?? ishhh.. banyak lagi nih. i was hoping that we'll go back very late, ie 11 pm.. so that i have more time to do the necessary.. but i think hubby has other plans.. oh well.. harap2 tak lupa apa2 la balik kg nih..

i have a terrible sakit pinggang.. i am blaming it on the jumble sale that i did yesterday.. imagine sitting and standing at one place from 9 am to 5 pm?? urghh... ini lah akibatnya..

anyway, my sis and i did a jumble sale yesterday.. on top of the aseanindulgence stuff, we also sell a lot of junks.. but hey, one man's junk is another man's treasure, right? the junks were the first to go!!! it was so amazing.. all in all, we might do it again.. but maybe we have to pick the right timing.. semalam banyak orang dah balik kampung laaa...

i think i have deprived ammar of a lot of toys.. looking at other mommy blogs, their babies have tonnes of toys and also baby gyms and stuff like that. i thot that these toys may not attract ammar's attention for long.. but maybe we bought too little toys for ammar??? hmm.. nampaknya bonus mommy ni kena pergi toysrus and spend on ammar lah.. well, anything for your kids, ehh???

but i am seriously looking into getting a pro photografer to take photos of ammar.. for keepsake.. i like one particular guy but he's charging something like 800 ++ ... mana nak ada duit!! another famous fotografer that is frequently used by many mommies are more affordable.. hopefully we can confirm on that soon!

oh well.. a couple of hours to raya mode!!!

10 most helpful items to me!!!

2008-09-26T01:40:00.004+01:00

I read this on a blog, and find it interesting.. so i think im gonna do it here.. for the benefit of anybody whose getting a newborn soon! plus, there are many people who have asked me about this lately.. so here goes..

1. My super wonderful Medela Pump in style Advanced Breastpump

I am a supporter of breastfeeding.. with only 2 months of maternity leave, i know breastfeeding will be rather difficult.. as all of you know, i was the owner of 3 pumps.. and now 2, after selling one.. but I absolutely adore my PISA breastpump cause im a low yield mummy and this machine definitely speed up the pumping process..and allow me to maintain my milk supply.. so this is my no 1 item!! after huffing and puffing, i reached my goal of one year full breastmilk.. it is of course doable, but i needed help.. hehe.. many more older moms at the office use their hand to express their milk.. altho i respect them for being able to do so... (cause it saves them money of course!) i read somewhere that hand expression MAY result in the shape of the breast to be odd.. i mean, breastfeeding absolutely change your breast appearance but hand expression may cause a double whammy.. but hey, i am not too sure about this too.. feel free to look it up!

2. My super light stroller - Maclaren Techno XT
Okay, you may think i'm vain cause i buy branded stroller.. but this is absolutely money well spent.. It is a very comfy umbrella stroller that is suitable from birth.. (so i only need 1 stroller!!) and super light.. other mommies who are always out with hubbies may not actually need super light stroller.. but I have to! I like going shopping, lepak2 and going out with frens and family.. and sometimes alone. so i need a stroller that is super light and easy to open and close. also, this stroller is magnificent to push.. the brake is easy to handle.. so i dont really need hubby to be around ALL the time to help with the stroller. mind you, i read almost all reviews on the internet before buying one.. this is definitely one smart buy compared to the rest that are ultra expensive and bulky

3. Car seat is a must!!!
Safety is ofcourse my top priority especially after having ammar.. of course, sometimes i am guilty of taking ammar out of the car seat when he's super cranky.. but having to drive here and there.. car seat is my saviour.. macam mana nak drive kalau kena pegang ammar kan??? so even if it is convenient, safety is the more reason to buy a car seat!

4. Exersaucer is luxury.. but useful nonetheless
Exersaucer is definitely helpful when I need to take a shower, run down to open the door or even to relax for a while. It helps to distract ammar for sometimes up to 45 minutes!! plus, it is stationery hence it is safer compared to a walker...

5. Nursing cover
During early days when ammar needs to nurse every hour (okay.. every 1.5 hour), nursing cover definitely allow me to feed anywhere and anytime.. of course ppl will look at you in a weird way.. but society is more tolerant towards breastfeeding in public now.. so it was not that bad

6. Organic Baby Balm
Ammar seldom had rashes attack and I owe it to this thing.. Ive used other diaper rash lotion but this is definitely less sticky and colourless.. it is also useful for other things ie mosquito bite..

7. Safety gate
Because we live in a double storey house, the safety gate is definitely a must investment. Plus, it relieves us of the duty to keep on kejar ammar not to panjat tanggat everytime.. cause babies and toddlers are definitely amazed by staircase.. dont ask my why!!

8. Baby bites
ohhh,, ammar absolutely lovesssss this biscuit!!! and it is one thing that i can bank on to keep ammar occupied (till now atleast) when i am eating or shopping.. it's actually biskut beras that is soo soft he can start eating it right from 6 months.. never leave home without it..

9. One suit baju from Mothercare
the mothercare range is really good because they think of all the small things about babies.. it was quite difficult to pakaikan mittens for ammar when he's really small cause the mitten akan terbukak and he'll scratch his face. mothercare's one suit pajama (yg macam rompers but long sleeve and seluar panjang) ada something that turn into mitten.. so, it's attached to the baju and babies cannot tanggalkan!

10. Baby monitor
Gave me a bit of freedom to move about around the house while knowing that I can still know if Ammar's okay or actually screaming in his room!

hmm... actually it is quite difficult for me to come up with the list cause suddenly i realized, we didnt buy that much for ammar.. only the essentials... and they are all useful!

Belated Pictures

2008-09-23T04:30:00.004+01:00

Birthday cupcakes!!

Ammar - morning of Sept 12th 2008 - on the way to a nursery

Our own mini celebration!!

Party packs for the kids!!! all 30 of them!!

Yummy Ammar!!

Cake cutting!!!

Playing with our gift!

Excited to open the pressies...

one year ahead

2008-09-22T14:32:00.003+01:00

home after my iftar at hotel midah.. yummy... ada ketam goreng, bubur cha cha yg sedap... and ammar was happy eating the keropok udang that i was able to enjoy my eating time.. however, he was not in such good mood on the way home.. nangis2 in the car seat sampai muntah - a protest to car seat! hmmphhh.. i guess he's had enuff of sitting and strapped in.. but putting him to sleep is so much easier now.. after his last nursing, die golek2 kejap. put him in his cot.. and he'll be in his la la land mode.. about 10 mins after, he's ready to sleep.. pat him on the back.. wallaaaa.... tidok! syoknyerrrr

eventho i still have my maid for another year, i couldnt help to think about what will happen once she's gone back to her kampung.. a few options i have

1) hire another maid - looking at maybe cambodia or filipino maid
2) send ammar to nursery nearby that he seems to like.. and i like it too!
3) send ammar to my mom's house and pay the maid here extra to look after him. after all, he'll be 2 years plus.. not so difficult to handle.. i hope!

i kinda like the nursery option but that means i have to do all the housework plus cook etc etc... aiyo... altho it can be done.. but for sure la im going to be flat!!! plus, difficult la to have dating2 time with hubby if no maid to jaga ammar at home on our date nights.. mana nak ada baby sitter kat sini! hmmphh...

cambodian maids apparently have problem with communication cause they do not speak english.. heard that filipino maids are quite good. speak english and can tach the kids.. but costs a freaking 1,000 per month!!! how laaa...??? if ive got expat pay, boleh la consider..

hmmphhh... any moms out there with any suggestion???

akhirnya

2008-09-18T07:58:00.002+01:00

Finally, I have finished my reporting season!!! woohooooo.. giler banyak report + kerja2 tambahan yang kena buat these past few weeks... baru la hari ni dapat bernafas lega... and tgk Gossip Girl during lunch time.. woot woot... i heart GG! although the story is moving towards haywire relationship... but i heart Serena and Dan! kui kui kui

I have been over at my parent's for a couple of days now.. babysitting their maid! urghhh... but today the gurls are having bukak pose at my place.. so i'll be heading home today.. hopefully the house is kemas la.. after the bday party the other day.. god knows what is still in the fridge!

anyway, cant wait for pay day!!! goshhh... im dead broke! and i have lots to clear off in my credit card! :-( dah la kena save for the duit raya! and we are going to bali lagi.. sheeshhh.... many things to spend money on..

on a totally different note, i miss walking through hyde park with hubby... with the summer ending and autumn nearing, really miss the yellowing leaves.. and the cool breeze.. haih.. bila la nak ada can macam tu lagi? nowadays the strolling we ever do is in shopping mall.. cause it's covered and cool.. :-( and then, i miss the feeling of being able to walk around feeling carefree with no responsibility to think of.. no bills so urgent to pay.. no nothing basically, just taking a day at a time.. worrying only what to eat.. and the exam which was far far away.. sweet sweet days...

but of course going back to ammar is something i look forward to every day!!! a much more independent boy.. he doesnt need mommy that much now since he's able to move about.. do things he likes doing... which is climbing up the stairs!!! oh well.. 2 hours to go..

Guilty mommy

2008-09-16T16:05:00.002+01:00

I feel bad.. Two days in a row i came back late and Ammar's already asleep. :-( In the morning, when I leave for work, he's still sleeping... I just cannot understand how some mothers can just substitute their time together with their babies to their maid. Guiltily, I did twice and I feel sad.. Sorry Ammar.. Insya Allah I'll come home early tomorrow, kay!

My sis left for newcastle last sunday with the parents.. Sending her off at the airport, I could still remember the day I leave for my own degree education... and all subsequent trips to KLIA after holiday ends... I am always super excited to board the plane. and my backpack is always full of crap that finding things takes minutes!!! did i tell you i love MAS flight food? Heard that it's not that good anymore now.. hmmphh...

Initially i thot of going along but failing my exam, I couldnt afford to spend on the ticket. plus, i need to save my holidays... so i guess maybe i will just wait until she graduates! going back to the UK would be something i'd definitely look forward to!! and taking ammar along? it would be something different yet interesting to do..

oh well.. it's 11 ish and im sleepy.. i think im gonna take ammar out of his cot to sleep in our bed.. hehehe.. notty me!!

Ammar's Birthday Bash

2008-09-15T08:39:00.003+01:00

Ammar's ONE last friday!!! Took the day off to spend time with him.. He woke up at 10 mins to 6 am and babble babble babble.. he was in such a good mood! later we went to have a look at the nurseries around the area.. preparation for ammar once his bibik goes back next year.. :-) he is soo happy interacting with the kids at the nursery.. very very excited to make friends!! and i kinda like one particular nursery.. problem is.. it costs a bomb!! hishh.. tgk la camana nanti.. then we went shopping for his party stuff.. later in the evening, we celebrated his bday with a slice of chocolate banana cake.. for him only.. since we were both fasting.. and later that night i spent some time at my mom's place cause ira is leaving friday..

saturday i started slaving from morning sampai la midnight.. we thot we just wanna make a small bday party.. but small is definitely not in the dictionary after i got married to darling hubby.. so in the end, total participants to ammar's first birthday bash was about 50!!! 25 plus kiddies and another 20 plus adults!!! but since i cooked for a gazillion people, there are lots of left overs.. plus those yang datang pun brought along all kinds of kuih muih that even my cabinets of dishes tak cukup to letak all the food!

Menu for the day was soto that has varieties of bahan2 tambahan, nasi putih with ayam merah, daging kicap and sayur campur!! since im the only cook, i had to cater out some stuff such as ayam merah and daging kicap.. but they are sooo sedap im glad i ordered from our local mak abu! hehehe.. and then, bukak puasa with air sirap bandung.. with the sirap made from scratch!!! fuihh gile letih!! but i didnt do the cakes... we had ice cream cake that was soo yummy.. and cupcakes that are not that yummy.. and my sis baked us two more choc cakes!! but there's one kedai barang cake nearby our place newly opened and buat baking class.. i've already put down my name.. so ammar's 2 year old birthday cake will be baked by his own mummy! hehehe...

the bday bash went well.. everyone ate a lot.. and many times! which is great by me.. :-) my in laws came all the way from perak to see their beloved and cute little cucu! we had enough party packs for everybody.. and i think the deco was tasteful and not overly done (thanks hubby!) and thank god for the yard! the kids utilized their energy from all the cake and sweet stuff from party packs playing anak ayam and musang outside while us adults have some borak2 session inside..

all in all, it was an eventful weekend.. and i love them to bits! all the kepenatan memasak tak rasa langsung when you are doing it for your loved ones.. no wonder mak-mak tak kisah je masak lama kat dapur when we request our favourite food! :-) thanks mak KJ and mak perak!!

at one, ammar has not walked on his own yet.. but has already taken a few steps unintentionally.. otherwise he has developed so much.. from a tiny baby that could rest happily on daddy's arm to a big boy weighing about 9kg!! .. he loves talking.. a very cheeky boy indeed.. he definitely adores his wan (my father) and always asking him to dukung... tsk tsk.. and he eats everything within reach! (my trait!)

whatever it is Ammar dear, Mommy loves you sooo much and it grows everyday.. and will never stop growing!! Grow up to be a good boy who obeys Allah and insya Allah you will always be safe.. We hope you like the pool and balls we gave you.. Although it pains me that you are growing up so fast.. I cant wait to see what other things you will amaze me in future!! Hugs and kisses always!!!

Spectra 3 For Sale

2008-09-09T01:03:00.003+01:00

Dear mommies or mommies-to-be and daddies or daddys-to-be

I fully support breastfeeding.. Insya Allah come this Friday, I have fully breastfed Ammar for one whole year! But all good things have to come to an end??? This is a conscious decision on my part.. to wean ammar to formula at the age of 1 during daytime.. I still intend to feed him directly during night time and weekends, of course.. but I feel that it is time i stop my pumping sessions at work..

If you have read my past entries, I am the guilty owner of three pumps! And now, since I am only a part time milkcow, I am selling my Spectra 3 complete with dual pumping kit to any mothers out there who intend to breastfeed even when away from baby.. It will be exactly what i bought in Feb 08. I have just sent it for service last few weeks so it is still in good condition..

If you are interested, please email me at liniazly@gmail.com for price and any other enquiries. The current selling price for a brand new pump of Spectra 3 is now RM438 if I'm not mistaken...

I also have a cooler bag of the brand fridge-to-go that I rarely use.. It is such a waste when I know it can be useful to other mommies out there.. so it is also up for sale!

Introducing AseanIndulgence

2008-09-04T01:42:00.003+01:00

Dear readers,

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Ramadhan Mubarak!

2008-09-03T08:22:00.002+01:00

Pumping tidak me'yield'kan hasil yang memberangsangkan.. I have about 20 stocks in the freezer.. Boleh ke bertahan nihhh???? I am weaning Ammar off to formula starting Sept 13, 2008.. But I am very afraid that I will not have enough stocks after that because of course perlu gradual introduction.. :-( harap2 kesampaian lah... My fren told me that maybe my yield is low because i have set my mind that I will stop pumping when Ammar turns one.. so my brain already has that input.. and wallah... ia menjalankan tugas mengurangkan production! hmmphh.. efficient betul brain nih!! but i salute mommies yg sanggup pump sampaikan anak 2 tahun lagi! hebat...

Nway, Ramadhan Mubarak everyone! 3 days into the fasting month, my body clock is adjusting.. nasib baik ada maid yg prepare for sahur.. masak nasi and all that.. lauk kalau rajin dah dimasak dulu, kalau tak, tapau dr rumah no 14. hehe.. im scared thinking of next year's ramadan! maid will be going back home after she finishes 2 years contract.. wallamak.. gut lak lini!! dah la hubby jenis yg makan2 proper2.. siap request dessert lagi utk sahur! peace hubby.. tapi i buat jugak per.. ;-)

okay.. i have tonnes to do!

Sehari bersama Pelitawanis

2008-08-30T14:19:00.003+01:00

Today I was fortunate enough to see the world from a different perspective...

As hubby is TNB's Branch manager, automatically I become the Pengerusi for Pelitawanis for the particular branch. Pelitawanis is an association for the lady staffs and wives of TNB workers. It wasnt easy being a very young pengerusi... having to deal with ladies of my mum's age! but one's got to do what one's got to do... anyway, today we hosted a sumbangan sempena ramadhan to less fortunate families around the area. HQ boss and pengerusi came down to join us as they were the sponsors.. we went from one family to another and Masya Allah... we are so very fortunate...

These families' houses were in a very dire need of repairs. Among those that we visited were single moms with 8 children to take care of, families with OKU members, a young mother whose undergoing chemo for breast cancer and many more... It was indeed a very humbling experience.

These people receive about RM200 monthly allowance to finance their daily need. Their houses were quite far from the main road but mostly only travel by bicycle.. Sangat menyedihkan when I see these people living in poverty and some are not able to receive help from the kerajaan due to many reasons...

Today my day was like a series of Bersamamu episodes.. one after another.. Of course it was sad watching on tv.. but when you actually go and have a look for yourself, it is a totally different experience..

I praise TNB and Pelitawanis for all their hardwork and dedication in opening our eyes towards the kesusahan hidup faced by these people.. It is very true when they say, do not compare yourself with those above you, instead look at the people less fortunate that you.. and you will definitely be thankful.

Wipe away the tears and face forward

2008-08-22T04:43:00.000+01:00

Hidup itu tak selalunya indah...

I believe with all the blessings I was given over the past years, Allah wants to test me.. He took away one thing and look at how i deal with the pain..

I have failed my exam.. it was a very difficult thing for me to accept but He gives unto people what He knows they deserve..

Though it is painful, it helps to look around me and be thankful for what the other things He has given me..

... a wonderful husband
... a very cute, cheeky and intelligent baby
... roof above our head, walls around to protect us and floor beneath our feet
... supportive family
... enough food to keep us full
... sufficient money to pay off our expenses

Masya Allah.. He's given me a lot..and when he takes away one thing, I whined and whined and whined...

Last time I used to think.. Failing an exam is probably something that I cannot face at all.. but after the terrifying results yesterday, I could imagine worst things.. Atleast I have the loved ones with me... safe and sound and healthy.. this is what is important...

Having a family of your own somehow changes your thinking, your mindset and your pleasures in life.. True, I am sad that I didnt pass the exam.. But I have to look on the positive side instead of skulking around.. Learn from the mistakes and brace forward..

Afterall, it is not how low you fall, but how high you bounce after that...( I do hope I am bouncing!)

no plan weekend

2008-08-17T04:25:00.002+01:00

last week had been super busy... went for a day conference.. and then straight to miri and labuan for a 3D2N visit.. man, that was super tiring!!! i was only in office last friday, and work is up my nose! grrrrr.... weekend as usual was spent to kenduri kahwin, and we had one aqiqah kenduri yesterday.. apart form that, just hanging around the house..

it is so pelik cause during weekdays i am usually so looking forward toward weekend. but weekend je, takde plan2 menarik. maybe because both me and hubby are in the 'no spending' mood. so we are kinda avoiding the malls at the moment. and lets face it, kalau no mall trips, where else can we go in Malaysia ni? nak ke park? sangat panas okay.. park2 kat malaysia ni bukannya shady sangat! zoo is also sooo hot. the only alternative is to go to aquaria.. but that's it! sangat pathetic life in KL nih...

if kat london, we can go to the park, or walk along the river.. and there are soooo many parks around! if not, ada banyak flea market... oh well... iklim khatulistiwa.. nak buat macam mana? we have to be more creative! problem is in malaysia, most good things costs money..and bukannya seringgit dua... banyak okay!!!

alrite.. enuff ranting for the day. im off googling baby friendly places in KL.. ciao!

when 2 become 1

2008-08-08T04:25:00.001+01:00

"When a man marries, he has fulfilled half of his religion, so let him fear Allah regarding the remaining half"

As a married woman, I profess that marriage is truly a bliss..

Growing up against the backdrop of secularism, arranged marriage is something that I am not used to.. I am a proponent of romantic courtship and grand gestures. But I am always awed with the procedure that took place between Prophet Muhammad (SAW) and Khadijah preceeding their marriage. It was Khadijah who confided in her relative of her intention in becoming Prophet's wife..

Before I actually meet my dear husband, I have heard of his characters.. It certainly got me interested in looking out for him later on. But it was when I laid my eyes on him that I actually feel the need to know him.. Marriage to my dear husband is certainly not an arranged one.. but the meeting was.. It was through a good friend of mine (N) who was in the States... whose friends with M, also in the States, who was hubby's dear friend.. N told M about how I want to get to know hubby.. and M arranged for us to meet.. virtually... I can still remember the anxiety, the emotions when I saw him on my chat window... two weeks later, we were an item.. and 6 years later, we were united in a beautiful ceremony..

I have known dear husband since he's 19.. I saw the changes he went through, from a boy to a man.. from a young lad to a husband.. and now a terrific father.. it is humbling to have such a wonderful person who complements you in a way that u will never understood. Praise to Allah for creating us in pairs.. He knows just what we are looking for..

As I grew older, I now see the beauty of marriage process in Islam. Islam teaches couples to fall in love in marriage.. and Islam seeks compatibility between a man and a woman through critical evaluation.. taaruf session between a man and a woman is especially romantic when one is open to the concept. I now see this from an entirely different view. The feeling that I had when I was about to meet with dear husband 'online' was a sweet torment, imagine if you have to go through taaruf.. I am sure the feeling is surreal.. Should taaruf goes well, man and woman unite in an akad, where man assume the responsibility of taking care of the woman from the father.. which is a grand gesture of the groom.. as he now is weighing everything on his shoulder.. promising to nurture his bride with all that he has..

Marriage matures a man's character through the responsibilities he has to shoulder, as a husband and a father, and similarly matures a woman's character through the responsibilities she has to shoulder, as a wife and a mother. Many men refrain from marriage simply because they wish to live as grown-up children with no ties to bind them, no house to unite them or responsibilities they are to undertake. But one does not know what one is missing when one never has them in the first place. Marriage is a strong commitment and a shared responsibility between a man and a woman since their first day together.

Of late, we may have been blinded by the western view of romance.. that marriage without romance will end up on the divorce table.. In Islam however, the fundamental of the binding tie is taqwa.. hence we strive to achieve His redha by committing 110% into the relationship.. we create romance to ensure the fire will always be there.. we brave the cloudy days for the sake of our growing child(ren).. not only do we value the person we are committing with, but most importantly, the responsibility borne to us since the day of the solemnization.

Anyway, it's been a while since i've written something to think about.. but being one of two who were joined together in matrimonial, i do believe that marriage completes me.. it may not be smooth all the way.. but the rocking lulls us into bliss..

sleep baby sleep..

2008-08-06T09:12:00.001+01:00

Kenapa tiba tiba office ni sunyi sepi??? hmmphhhh.. it's either everyone is working really hard.. or they are all asleep, as a result of our nasi briyani lunch.. hehehe...

I cant wait to go back and watch ayat2 cinta tonite.. looks like a very interesting movie with lots of twists and turn??? if the movie is good, maybe i should read the book, eh? movie interpretation is always never up to par with their original story.. i watched ps i love you last few days.. it is quite a far cry from the actual emotions potrayed by the book.. oh well.. maybe it's difficult to cramp everything into 2 hours.. the only movie adaptation i saw that was satisfying was pride and prejudice series by BBC... but that is like hours!!! 2 dvd lagik! :-)

Work is starting to pile up.. with the result season nearing.. :-( end of honeymoon period, i guess..

good news on ammar's development.. i have (so far) managed to sleep train him without relying on my b***s.. tee hee hee.. ammar's night time routine starts at 8.30 pm.. change into his pjs, salin diaper, pakai lotion.. (chewah lembut licin kulit anak mommy nih).. then kiss daddy nite nite.. have his last feed in bed with mommy.. in dim light.. bile nampak ala2 ngantuk, mommy terangkan sikit lampu.. baca buku!!! hehehe... after about 2 books, which is very short pon by the way... dim the light again.. and zikir.. and he will ehek ehek sikit.. and then.. boom... tido! it was difficult initially.. but after 2 to 3 nites, he realized that it is his bed time.. and after i close the book, he'll already be rubbing his eyes.. a sign of sleepiness....hopefully he'll follow this routine continuously.. and i will try my best to reduce our night activities to adhere to this little boy's sleep time.. for everyone's sake!!! especially yours truly!

In the moment..

2008-08-03T15:11:00.003+01:00

Congratulations to my fren, Fazly, on his wedding to his many years girlfriend, ninie.. I attended their reception last night despite having to go alone without hubby whose attending another good fren's wedding in Malacca... It was beautiful and splendid.. there's nothing that i didnt like about the reception.. and the bride was sooo pretty!!

Anyway, as the groom was one of my circle of friends during my London ACCA period, it is expected that I'll be meeting all the 'londoners' once again.. considering that we were close before, I was mesmerized by how grown up everyone is.. with new responsibilities, career, kids... it's been quite some time since i saw these people and I've secretly hoped all these while that they remain the same.. but they dont of course.. as do i.. as we all progress in our life, we grow more different than who we used to be.. thankfully it's good different...

All these while, i have secretly hoped that one day i can go back to the city i once called home.. but i realized yesterday that even if i did, it will never be the same.. it struck me that all the time ive been back, i lived each day hoping that one day i'll be back to where i used to be (with my new family, of course).. but foolish me, it took more than 2 years for me to truly believe that it will never be the same.. the people, the time, the surrounding...

during that time, we had no one but each other.. we were extremely close.. spent most of our time together.. but as we grow older, we meet our loved ones.. we have new additions.. basically, things change.. and realizing that, i vow to live life in the moment.. rather than clouded by memories or blinded by future..

Truthfully, my London years were some of the best part of my life.. friendships made... memories created.. they will all be a part of me.. bits that moulded who i am today... and i will always treasure that... but now i am living and cherishing moments with my love ones... and hopefully living to the fullest.. rather than looking forward to something that may not even occur..

Yesterday's reception was memorable not only because the ceremony was super wonderful, but it was an eye opener for yours truly...

maid yg memeningkan kepala

2008-07-31T03:30:00.001+01:00

ohh.. mengapakah maid tak habis2 menyusahkan pemikiran????? Do u know what my maid's day to day activity is???

5 am - Bangun, buat air, sapu and mop lantai (2 kali in the span of 5 weekdays), sediakan my pumping kit
6.30 am ishh - dihantar ke rumah tok and wan utk jaga ammar..
8 am - mandikan ammar, bagi ammar makan cereal and food (yg sudah dimasak oleh bondanya)...
9 am - ammar minum susu and lepas tu tido... utk pengetahuan semua, time ammar tido cik maid saya ni takde specific job scope.. dalam seminggu sekali dia akan bawa baju utk digosok... other than that mungkin cik maid ini akan tolong kemas2 rumah tok and wan yg memang ada maid sendiri.. so tak banyak pon kerja!!!! ok, maybe kena basuh cloth diaper ammar and baju ammar.. tapi ammar punya baju semua cenonet.. bukannya besar sgt pon.. jadi kejap je dah setle..
10 am - mungkin ammar bangun and main.. dan maid supervise and bagi snack
12 noon - masak bubur utk ammar.. kasik ammar makan...
1 pm - ammar main lagi.. cik maid mungkin duduk dekat tepi, or worse tgk tv sambil tgk ammar main.. (agak hampeh)
2 pm - ammar minum susu lagi...
3 pm - ammar tido.. and most of the time cik maid ini pon tido sama kat dalam bilik yg berhawa dingin.. (dia ingat aku tatau ke aktiviti die nih?)
4 pm - ammar bangun and main..
5 pm - masak sup utk ammar.. ammar makan.. lepas tu mandikan ammar.. minum susu...
6 pm - mommy ammar balik jadi si maid ni free nak buat apa2.. dia mandi.. siap2 barang nak balik.. makan...
7pm - balik rumah, sterilize botol2 susu, basuh pumping kit..
8 pm - basuh baju lepas employernya sendiri yg asingkan baju mana nak basuh tgn and basuh mesin.. dan employernye jugak yg on kan machine.. die tolong sidai je lepas siap.. sidai pon dlm area rumah.. tak payah susah2 keluar rumah ..
9 pm - kemas2 dapor yg tak berapa kotor pon, lipat kain, kadang2 seterika baju, simpan baju.. siapkan pumping kit mommy utk malam..
10 pm - TIDO!!!!!

Alangkah senangnya tgk kerja makcik sorang ni... makan ditanggung.. dah la tak makan telur, seafood, ikan... beli tempe ngan tauhu pon tak suke sangat.. nak ayam ajer sebab susah nak makan ayam kat indon.. dapat duduk bilik en-suite lagi.. siap ada radio.. tv aje yg tak de nak tengok..

itu pon ada hati nak cakap ngan aku nak keja setahun jer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! amboi .. cantik mak nenek die.. ingat nak datang sini main2 ker???? ishhh sungguh menyakitkan hati... effectiv ely gaji die is about 600 plus plus sebulan! sabun, ubat gigi, pad, semua ditanggung! tinggal bayar utk beli alat2 nak cantikkan muka je.. (muka sendiri jaga la kan... )

so in the end, im a paranoid mother yg takut anaknya ditinggalkan.. agent convinced me that she wont do that considering that she has all her money with me.. plus, after telling her that i ve already done the medical for 2nd year.. she decided to stay on.. but how can i be convinced??? and how can i make sure that my baby is well taken care of after this??? nasibla saya ni agak penyabar orangnya... ketap bibir je la.. nak marah2 pon tak guna..

this is a dilema for me.. now i really cannot trust her.. i think she really tak tau bersyukur.. she only has to take care of one baby... and do minimum cooking because i of course dont want her to cook so much for the family.. and she gets paid a lot! cuba lah tgk org lain yg kerja jaga 5 org anak.. kena masak, basuh baju.. tido bilik sempit.. bilik air share .. so frustrating when people tak bersyukur nih...

itu lah saja ringkasan kegeraman saya utk hari ini.. sekian!

zero degrees...

2008-07-30T08:24:00.001+01:00

Aku sangat sejuk!!!! Boleh tak jgn jadikan tempat kerja ni mcm duduk dlm igloo kat kutub utara??????? atau pon aku dah kurus??? ahahahaha... u wish! tapi seriusly tangan mcm nak beku... brrrrrrrrrrr..... otak mcm tak boleh nak fikir.. how can i work like this???

on a different note.. i have miscalculated today's event.. i should drove to lrt so i have the car to drive home.. with hubby calling and telling me he's coming home super late, how the heck am i going to transport the baby, the maid and the barang2 home today??? huhuhhu.. dah la saya puasa.. saya tak nak bukak puasa sorang sorang kay.. pathetic!

after sekian lama, i dropped by at susuibu's website to read up on the latest forums.. baru tau that there's a lot of mommies out there already enjoying medela freestyle.. seronotnyaaaa!!! and one is even selling them at much cheaper price than the one i saw at the curve... but since my pumping journey is not that long anymore, saya harus memprevent diri daripada indulging in purchases yang hanya akan digunakan when ammar has adik! tee hee hee...

on a slightly different note, i really have to shop for ammar's new baju tido / baju basahan utk dipakai di rumah.. poor baby, ammar's seluar semua dah ketat ala ala amy search.. how la to sleep like that, rite??? and being a cheapskate mommy, i will only buy these baju at either giant or anakku.. hehehe.. sorry baby boy.. i will keep purchases at mothercare and Gap and the like for your jalan2 baju je okay.. cause i know how lasak u are nowadays that all these baju hanya akan jadik mop lantai after all the merangkak'ing' you do.. sesungguhnya anakku ini dah menjadikan kerja keraja para maid amat mudah sekali sebab die tolong sweep di merata rata tempat...

okay... nak pergi surau laa.. baik solat daripada tak sudah2 mencece...

skinny jeans

2008-07-30T01:20:00.002+01:00

I've read somewhere that in attempting to lose weight and start a healthy lifestyle, do not let the measuring scale dampen you. Initially, your weight may increase as fat turns into muscle.. but take note of the inches that you lost.. after months of spending time at the gym, swimming, squashing, and all the pilates.. I am so excited that I fit into my office skirt AND my pre pregnancy jeans!!! woohooooo....... Ok, truth be told, i have two jean sizes.. one is pre-ACCA and another is post-ACCA. Of course i only managed to fit into my post-ACCA jeans.. but it didnt matter!!! atleast I have jeans to wear now!!!! tee hee hee hee.. Unfortunately, I still cannot fit into my office wardrobe shirts and kebaya due to some assets that i have acquired over the months.. (and also the spare tyres, may i add...) but im not anal.. im taking one step at a time.. and I am basking in the warmth of achievement.. heheheh

But of course ive been notty.. I decided to skip gym for few weeks now.. and just do my exercise at home.. like pilates and skipping rope.. i am hoping that because im fasting like crazy (3 days a week, mind you) to ganti all my puasa last year, i can burn calories without the hardwork.. wooppss... maybe not as fast though... so note to self.. marilah kite ber swimming swimming hujung minggu ini!!! plus, ive already bought ammar a swimming nappy, and he only used it once.. better make that RM61 ringgit worthwhile!

by the way, all through my weight management programme, I have asked for guidance from my sista and my bro in law.. they are both MD who are pursuing anti-aging medicine. ok, no smirking yet.. anti aging does not mean against the rule of life.. but making sure that you attempt to enter the old age healthily.. they have a website... please do visit as they have a lot of health related articles.. and if you guys want a consultation, feel free to contact them.. click here to be directed to the website..

Blast from the past

2008-07-28T04:21:00.001+01:00

Perhaps some things are better left unsaid.. It is for the greater good.. But I am very very thankful for the huge storage space I have on hotmail.. allow me to still have emails i got from gazillion years ago... some that really have the ability to cheer me up.. eventhough considering the space and time in between, they probably have no meaning by the sender anymore.. funny that it takes someone else to show you your own value.. and appreciate them..

But thanks to the sender of the email, somehow i am able to cope with monday blues and crappy sunday..

And mental note to oneself, endangered species...

shit happens..

2008-07-27T14:56:00.002+01:00

Here i am, on a sunday nite.. feeling rather sucky...

i've learned that life is not a bed of roses long time ago.. but it is rather nice if someone actually took the effort to even start planting the roses, eh? i'm talking nonsense, yes.. but it takes a lot of strength to remain sane at this point of time.

and how was your weekend?

this and that

2008-07-25T01:20:00.001+01:00

with so many weddings and celebrations taking place in the next few weeks, i wonder if we have time to enjoy a relaxing weekend for the next one month?? hubby has a wedding to go to in terengganu.. which means one thing for me.. paid vacation!!! hehehe... but lets not hope too much.. many things are happening around klang valley that there is a possibility we might have to scrap that plan! :-(

Did i mention my very very tiring trip to kemaman??? the heat, the journey, the backache.. reached home at about 11.30 pm... dozed off at 12.30, just to wake up at about 6 am to go to work again! well, ini lah kerja org makan gaji.. we go where we are directed to... ohh.. and guess where i had to pump??? at a surau in a warehouse where they keep all the minyak and spare part for the vessel and what not.. in the middle of nowhere!!! okay.. i might be exaggerating, but kemaman supply base is not exactly a modern area.. especially where the companies have their warehouse.. so it was something i would say macam dalam hutan.. but reached by tar road.. well, better than having to pump on the kapal itself!!!

im excited about the celebration planned for hubby dearest.. eventhough he still hasnt got a clue, i know he's looking forward to it too! heheeheh.... it will be a weekend of spending quality time with the love ones...

opposite attracts?

2008-07-22T08:36:00.001+01:00

Hubby says that he is unlikely to be 'terasa' if being criticized by people close to him.. ie family.. for me however, it is rather the opposite... i am more deeply hurt when bashed by family members.. to me, they are the people who know me best. therefore they should know what hurts and what not.. i can simply brush aside what a stranger's perception towards me.. cause i know that they dont know me.. but when someone close to me does that.. it hurts so very much...

anyway, on a much cheerful note, i am likely to be spending A LOT on updating my wardrobe and the like.. after almost two years being dressed in what one may term as potato sack, i feel that i have to change my image.. after all, being a mommy clearly have changed one's priority.. Ammar's collection of apparels are more interesting than his mommy! can you believe that? if you are a mommy, then i think you will.. simply said, ammar's cycle of clothes are actually longer than mine! and this comes from someone who has too many clothes before that one can expect to see the same clothes being worn after a month or more! (ok.. so im not those yg wear and dump.. but one month cycle is pretty long, right?)

inflation or no inflation, i have some serious spending to do.. this is no more luxury item, but necessity! hopefully we can get it done by the end of the week.. what with all the celebration im planning for DH.

tomorrow is another field trip for me! will be going to kemaman for a company's vessel launching.. truth be told, i hate the travelling bit.. dah la day trip.. giler sakit bon**t. but all in the name of work! alritey.. 1.5 hours to go before i can buzz off from this place!

in the mean time

2008-07-16T07:35:00.001+01:00

Work has been 'almost' crazy.. well, actually they are personal things which took over my work time.. so it kinda squeezed the time i have for work... i have finalized the whole family's insurance.. with a friend's cousin.. i think he's damn lucky.. customer cari agent... where got like that one? but he's a nice guy.. doing it full time.. so hopefully i did the right thing...

Ammar turned 10 months last Saturday..so big my little boy! he's turning into a more cheeky boy.. like when the bathroom door is open and I say 'Ammar, no... ' he'll start crawling towards the door... stop, and turn around to look at me; checking if im going after him or not.. and if i am, he'll zooommm.. speed and race to the bathroom!!! how i find pleasure in moments like that... sentimental mommy arising!!!

i started feeding him fish too.. and seeing that im not such a good cook, i dont think my fish soup turned out very nice.. i know that if i give it to hubby, he'll probably vomit seeing he is very against kehanyiran..walaupon a tinge.. but this son of mine??? he ate them like it's the best meal on earth! habis licin! and i try to leave the fish and the rice lumpy rather than pureeing them till the last drop.. he looks happy munching and munching and munching.. :-)

ive got nothing to write anyway.. blank.. and of course envying someone whose having a ball in London! darn...........

Healthy Lifestyle = no money? hmmm

2008-07-09T13:49:00.003+01:00

ever since i got married, i became more health conscious.. maybe it is because my sister and bro-in-law are doctors.. and my other sister is all into this health thingy.. i guess being around them helps to highlight all these...

Ammar's arrival turned me into some sort of a health freak.. I used organic balm for ammar's b*tt rash... and it worked so well.. so i became a believer in natural and organic products.. Ammar started off solids with only organic cereal, after fully on breastmilk for 6 months.. and i tried organic veges and fruits for daddy and me.. but it didnt last that long cause in the end we had to throw away some veges which rot due to late consumption. so sayang..

since ammar started crawling, i changed my floor cleaner from chemical based to plant based.. and my laundry detergent and softener now are organic.. i cooked ammar's food from scratch every weekend and freeze them for the whole week's consumption.. a lot of those that are sold in bottles at supermarket have high sugar content, which they changed into different name.. sucrose, etc etc..

for hubby and me, we start to eat more oat, whole grain bread.. no sugar jams.. no santan in my cooking... i use more olive oil and canola oil and sunflower oil.. i bought minyak cap buruh once because it is so much cheaper but i feel so guilty until now.. i dont fry nuggets in oil anymore. Instead, i use the grilling pan and do it barbecue style..

following a healthy lifestyle in Malaysia however is pretty expensive.. i really want to switch to organic products but the costs are quite high.. so i focused on the more important things. i cut down on ammar's organic consumption but i make it a point not to give him anything excessive in sugar.. and i try my very best to feed him homemade food..

with the rise in the costs of living, i dont know how much longer i can sustain this lifestyle.. i had to really budget to ensure that we still have cash at the end of the month.. sad, eh? it is so pathetic that our income is threatening our health. both physically and mentally.. i miss the grocery shopping in UK.. so cheap as a percentage of income compared to here. oh well.. i guess we have to make do with what we have.

some rationales for why ive done what..

chemical based cleaners may cause allergies and asthma
excessive sugar may result in obesity and diabetic
santan = lemak and lemak is definitely not good for our health (but of course i had to make exception on special occasion like raya!)
oil consumption must have the right ratio of omega 6 and omega 3 to reduce cholesterol build up
homemade food usually have less salt and pewarna and sugar and most importantly, no msg!

well.. that's my 2 cents!

cruise baby cruise..

2008-07-08T02:17:00.001+01:00

Naughty me for not properly warming up before my gym session last sunday, i am stuck with this pain at my heel.. :-( i guess no more gym for me till ... next week??? and must remember to WARM UP!!!

hubby's birthday is in 3 weeks.. i'm hoping to put together a plan for all of us.. kesian hubby.. bday die selalu tak dicelebrate hebat2.. lets change that, shall we?

oh.. ammar is already cruising!!!! we were having our lepak time after work yesterday when he started to cruise really really fast!! as i sat there watching in awe, i know that in barely a month, my baby will be walking around and me chasing after him... boy, he grew up so fast! i know i will definitely miss his baby days once he's all toddling around.. some memories that i will definitely cherish .. the look on his face,which lights up when he saw me up the stairs.. waiting to be picked.. it is just priceless.. and this morning when i held him close while he's sleeping.. i just hope that the moment will not end.. it is very peaceful hearing your baby's steady breath against you..

but i guess it is an unstoppable process.. babies grow up.. and now is the time for me to fill those memories with precious moments together.. which is why i hate my 8 - 5 job.. depriving me of my time with my boy.. we should either have 8-4 or 9-5. and how do we achieve this? by operating more efficiently.. but of course, considering where im working, we may be the last company to upgrade our efficiency!

Charm Bracelet

2008-07-03T06:55:00.001+01:00

After slaving for a few days menyiapkan my presentation, i think it is safe to say that it is 90% done.. my own preparation? lets say about 70%... it is always terrifying to present to the managers.. we feel that we have covered all bases.. but of course, there is this one question raised by them that will leave me a bit dumbstruck! lets hope to minimize that tomorrow..

i have this rising urge to buy a charm bracelet this weekend.. i have only spent a bit of my mas kahwin on an anklet.. is it time to spend more? hehehe.. i know hubby must be pening with my shopping addiction.. but atleast im not zapping his card, right?? maybe we should look around first.. i know i wanna have a look at thomas sabo.. and a friend told me i should check out tiffanys as well... window shopping is a bliss!!!!

going back to me finding insurance.. anybody reading this is a full time insurance agent?? im looking for agents that sell takaful products.. last week ive already met a good insurance agent.. who i think i can trust in completing any claims.. but.. he does not sell takaful products.. i think prudential offers quite good value.. but i am not done with my research yet..

opps.. lunch time is over.. have to get back to work!

Finally.. My review of breast pumps..

2008-06-26T01:59:00.002+01:00

this entry may only be of interest to mommies looking for breastpumps to be used after giving birth.. As the owner of not one, not two.. but THREE pumps, i feel that i should share my experience and save other mommies some RM!

the first pump i bought was AVENT ISIS IQ NO while i was pregnant. i was naive on which pump will work well and so on and so forth... i think i didnt do much reading on reviews by other mommies on the internet.. which is a lot by the way! I spent about 500 plus on it, which was a good deal by mothercare.. it is quite difficult to find it for the price of less than 600 nowadays..

My uptake on the pump? Cause it is a single pump, it took quite some time for me to express during working hours. And i am the kind of mommy who express 3-4 times a day at work.. so i find this pump to be really slow... and since we control the suction and the pace of the pumping, it was quite difficult to set everytime i pump... but on the other side, this pump can run on manual and battery and electric.. so it is really easy for me to bring this when i have to go outside of office for work or while we travel, etc etc..

Using Avent, I was not able to express as much as Ammar's drinking.. so I tried on my friend's Medela PISA... and it worked so well that I used my bonus to buy a new PISA.. it was the latest PISA, the one with BPA free bottles.. It costs about RM1,500 after discount. Since it is a double pump, it cuts my pumping time by half.. I could yield about 3.5oz in about 20 mins max.. It is slightly noisier but not uncomfortably noisy.. so it's not so bad.. the two phase expression is helpful but my letdown does not really follow the phase. PISA gives me the maximum output and it can also run on battery.. but needs like 10 batteries altogeher.. the bag is really good cause i can fit everything inside.. the downside is that i think the bag is a tad too big and the pump itself is quite heavy.. so it is such a hassle to bawak balik back and forth especially since i am an lrt user.. so i leave the pump and bag in the office and carry home just the milk bottles and what not..

So after being satisfied with Medela, what made me bought another pump???? cause i am a low yield mommy, and i travel by lrt, i am too lazy to carry around my beloved PISA.. after pumping 3-4 times at work, i still have to add two more sessions at home.. before bed and after i wake up. i have ruled out Avent for this purpose cause i need a double pump and I want a slightly cheaper one.. so after reviewing high and low, i bought the Spectra 3 with add on double pump.. it was before the price increase on spectra items and i got another 10% discount for being a BAIBOO member.. so it costs about RM400 althogether..

spectra 3 was actually designed by a person who worked with medela. so the set up is almost similar.. except, it doesnt have the two phase thingy.. it was not bad.. but can never compare to medela PISA. it is fairly quiet tapi not so much sampai org kata can pump at cubicle.. well, not in my office laa.. cause my office ni agak senyap... it takes slightly longer to finish a session unless you are really full and bursting! ahahhaa... but it does its job.. and cheap too! with Spectra, im able to increase my freezer stash by a LOT! cause of all the extra pumpings i managed to do..

so there you go.. My pick will still be Medela PISA.. and im eyeing Medela Freestyle for the next one... :-) Total costs of all my pump is about RM2500 and if I am able to feed Ammar solely on breastmilk until he is one year old, i will reach my payback period assuming one month's consumption of formula is RM200++.. 2 months to go.. come on Lini!!!

Hopefully this will help mommies entering the pumping world... All the best and good luck!

Insurance + Education Fund + RM RM RM.....

2008-06-24T15:13:00.003+01:00

ammar is already asleep at 8pm.. sigh.. hari ni tak dapat main dgn ammar cause i was discussing my insurance plan with this insurance agent straight after i came home.. poor baby... no worries.. i will hug you while sleeping tonite, kay...

i am currently actively searching for the best insurance policy for my family. ive only met one agent.. another two to go.. making it easier to compare which one has the better policy at the right premium.. cause face it, i have so many other expenses.. but i guess insurance is a must... especially since we have ammar now.. since im the one considered to be the less sibuk between the two of us, i am the one doing all the research.. and proposal will be summarized to hubby... and we'll hopefully discuss over the weekend... so safe to say im the CFO and CEO of this little company .. while hubby is the shareholder??? thank god i like number crunching!

education plan for ammar started even before he was conceived... but maybe i have to rethink the value because with the amount i contribute to the fund, mcm IPTA je laa yg boleh cover.. and since i have put aside for ammar about a year plus plus before he was born, maybe now is the time to put aside for his future adik???

i guess my priority now has totally changed. last time, i spent so much on make up, skin care, hand bags and the like... i still do sometime.. but i am prepared to change my SK II for l'oreal for the sake of my baby... i'd never knew i'll be doing this last time.. how much people change once they swap the title of just a wife to a mommy...

enuff money talk.. off to my bedtime pumping and to bed...

my 'happy' places..

2008-06-20T08:52:00.003+01:00

As a working and pumping mommy, whose work nature sometimes include visiting yards, attending conference and once in a while, 'jetsetting', i hereby list down places where ive used as my pumping stations...

1) in a moving car - yes, this is fairly normal for everyone...

2) at a variety of surau - my office, Mandarin Oriental KL, Changi Airport, TNB Bangsar hall

3) on the plane ... at my seat... - KL-Spore, Spore-Kl .. a number of times... need to do this very discreetly of course as flight attendants are not always male!
4) in the toilet - yuck, i know!!!! but only the clean ones... - Mandarin Singapore, plane toilet.. must be the first to use btw!
5) on the bus - twice!!! and it is a chartered bus... - very tricky.. especially when halfway through, your work people board the bus!!!

hmm.. anymore? i think that's it.. on normal days when i dont have to go anywhere.. it is such a relief.. i can do my thang while reading a book! but when some travel is needed.. preparation is a must! during the last seven months plus, i go to conferences lugging around huge bag.. people thought i went shopping! but boo-hoo.. who cares.. im doing this for ammar.. and that is the most important thing..

i have voiced out my intention to stop being a full time milk bar to darling ammar.. but couldnt bring myself to do so.. production looks very discouraging nowadays.. i just hope that i'll be able to pass the one year mark..

i know other mommies perhaps have more horrible experience than me.. but being caught while doing it by someone you merely knew.. nightmare! thank god nursing bib was invented!

the thing is, after putting on the mommy cap, you just do the unthinkable.. i would be soo damn embarassed if caught doing 'unusual' things before.. but when you know it is the utmost important for your little one, you put on a brave face.. and you do it!

Good luck mommies!!

weekend weekend hurry here!

2008-06-20T07:56:00.003+01:00

how i am looking forward to a relaxing weekend!!! this week's work had been sooo tiring! after being away for two and a half week during peak time, had to do all the things that were left behind. finished my last report yesterday.. but i still have tonnes to do including a presentation.. urghh...

good news.. i am in my pre-pregnancy baju kurung now! woohooo.. it's still a bit tight, but atleast i can sarung it.. before i started work, i can hardly masuk the kain.. can u imagine that?? baby steps lini... baby steps.. from health perspective, one should not lose more than 2kgs per week.. i think!

am very new to facebook... so i really have no idea what's going on in there.. but managed to went through pics of my friends all over.. after seeing those people having good time in London, teringat kenangan2 silam.. very carefree.. without having to berfikir panjang, can do a lot of things... i guess my life is 180 degrees now... but it's all worth it when i see my babies... BOTH of them.. big and small.. :-)

what to do tonight?? thought of going out but going out only will menghabiskan $$$$... maybe i should bake? haha.. we'll see... tapi apa2 pon.. TGIF!

newbies...

2008-06-19T03:47:00.001+01:00

with the rise in petrol price, i can see many newbies on the lrt... how do i recognize them? easy peasy.. they are the ones who DO NOT QUEUE!!! do not give way when people are coming in or out, do not fill in the spaces so that more ppl can come in.. and sometimes.. they talk too loud! come on freaks... we the lrt people are much more civilized.. we know that you jump-queue while driving... but we honor first come first in line, okay!!! ini buat2 macam queue.. bile lrt datang, die yg ke depan dulu.. hello!!!! soooo rude................... i really cant wait for these suckers to adjust their lifestyle and go back to driving their cars...

sorry for the outcry.. im just soo pissed that the lrt is too packed nowadays.. can hardly breathe... and sometimes these people stink! and to think that the kelana jaya line will be extended to USJ.. darn! more people.. more stink! unless the rapid kl is increasing the frequency of their train.. i bet nobody can even masuk the train when it reaches kelana jaya.. i know im selfish.. but i paid a freaking premium price for my house in KJ cause it has lrt station! it doesnt mean anything if i can hardly masuk the lrt now, rite?

on a happier note... darling hubby came back last nite.. yeay!!! no more single mom act.. plus he bought a few tudung for me... so double yeay! changed our morning ritual though.. we left home with separate cars now... im the one dropping off ammar and maid at mom's place and then to the lrt station so that hubby can drive straight to kuala Selangor. org reduce driving.. but we increase our journeys.. well.. it's definitely easier for me cause i can head to gym straight after work..so no excuses for me to lazy around not exercising!

full weekend

2008-06-15T15:16:00.003+01:00

weekend was truly hectic.. started with gym, then i tended my vege garden yg dah sekian lama terbiar... then off to a wedding.. and then to pelitawanis nasyid... good news... my cawangan kuala selangor was in the top 10!!! and so they performed again... although they didnt get the top 3, they won persembahan terbaik!!! fewiittt... go kuala selangor! ahhahaha.. and guess who went up there to ambik hadiah??? me!! urghhh... actually malas... coz i didnt participate at all.. apart from sponsoring a bit.. but they kinda insisted.. so terpaksa la naik jugak... anyway bravo to all the participants.. it is really nice to see housewives and staffs working together.. practicing and stuff like that.. and mind you, these are like quite veteran people.. memang sporting habis laaa.... well, i dont know until when i will become the pengerusi over there.. but i hope that during my term, i am able to contribute positively to the club..

that was yesterday.. today three of us went to the curve and ikea.. to eat.. and find decor stuff for the house.. we managed to buy what we wanted.. plus of course a zillion other things!!!! iskk iskkk iskkk.... hopefully can start making the house cosier now...

at the mo, hubby is on his way to kota bharu.. how i wish i am following!!! :-( i miss him tonnes already!!!! wednesday is soooooooo faraway!!!

post exam

2008-06-13T01:28:00.001+01:00

Exam is finally over.. it was not what i expected.. but let's forget about it.. and focus on having fun now.. still have a few months before results come out..

Ammar turned 9 months yesterday!! At 9 months, he's a very curious boy. Pergi sini, pergi sana.. he loves it when i slide open our wardrobe.. and he sepah2 kan my baju.. yes.. thanks ammar boy... but im trying very hard not to be anal.. i guess a few semak here and there should not be a problem considering that it encourages him to be the little explorer! His bday gift to me... He slept the whole night last night!!! Thank you baby... after zikiring him to sleep ( about 45 mins, mind you ), he slept all the way until about 5 am.. to feed... well, ada la die toss and turn, but after hugging him and let him feel that im there, terus sambung tido.. im really proud of his achievement! maybe when you are a bit bigger, we can move you to sleep in your own room, kay!

First weekend after exams... i have a full schedule.. pasar tani in the morning .. maybe gym afterwards.. some gardening.. (if can squeeze in the time).. nasyid pelitawanis.. (if they go through the first round today).. wedding.. ishh.. penuhnya!! and there's the house to update!!! cannot la continue living in a house yg macam rumah bujang without decor.. hehehe...

hubby is again going away for course.. now in KELANTAN!!!! if i have cuti, i'd definitely pack up and follow him.. dreaming of all the tudung!!! tapi apakan daya.. cuti kena simpan.. :-( so i will have to again sleep at mom and dad's for three friggin nights!!! i thot of just staying at home.. tapi alarm system is still down.. so a bit scary laahhh

oritey.. have to start working!!! toodaloosss..

short term memory working hard

2008-06-03T05:09:00.002+01:00

i am ready to vomit!!!! this is undeniably one of the worst exam preparation ive had... i am relying a lot on short term memory now.. hubby is still at his conference thingy.. but we are joining him later today.. wish me luck in our journey to klia by ERL.. i really hope ammar wont be cranky.. if not matila.. have to pull the super mommy act .. tolak stroller sebelah tgn.. angkat ammar lagi sebelah.. am praying wouldnt have to go to that point...

my application to go to the annual oil and gas conference next week was rejected by the HR.. hampeh.. i submitted the application like months before.. and their reason to decline is tak sempat nak masuk meeting.. hello!!!! how slow can u be???? urghhh... geram betul dgn org2 gy tak efficient nih.. tak patut kasik bonus la kat these ppl.. such a burden to the company.. and some more u want to retain this kind of people by giving them retirement benefits!!!

i really wanna watch SATC the movie.. maybe with the girls... hopefully they will not watch it until i finish exam... watching the muvi with hubby mcm kelakar jer... since he's not really a fan of satc in the first place

orite.. time to hit the books.. or maybe we should have lunch first???

exam stress + maid stress = KABOOSHHH

2008-06-01T11:00:00.002+01:00

hubby has gone to his PK conference... for 3 nites!!! uwaaa.... therefore, here i am .. with ammar in tow of course... lodging at mom and dad's... we'll probably meet him later... on day 3 so that we can stay at a 5 star hotel! hehehe... ive brought ammar's swimming trunk, just in case we are up for a dip!

the maid is driving me crazy AGAIN! but im taking baby steps.. inhale... exhale.... let me be done with my exam stress first... and then the training shall begin... she doesnt know what's in store for her... *evil laugh*... ada ke patut bergaya sakan nak gi kenduri orang?? kiter bawak die nak suruh tolong2.. ini siap pakai slipper high heel ibu nya lagik!!! ishhh...............sakit hati beta..

another week till my exam... prepared? hmm... sill have tonnes of revision.. or shall i say.. tonnes of learning for the first time??? im relying a lot on study last minute.. :-(

alrite... am off to research for our bali trip!

nothing in particular

2008-05-30T15:57:00.002+01:00

friday nite.. and im watching dancing with the stars.. we've subscribed to astro channel 733 and we've got bbce as well.. ive been hooked to 733... so many things to watch! very interesting.. we dropped the carton channel but i think we're gonna have to subscribe to it again in 2 years.. from early observation, ammar looks kinda hooked to the tv too... he'll be watching everything im watching with interest.. hopefully we are not teaching him to be a tv junkie though!

anyway his bottom teeth has presented itself.. so cute!!!!!! and so tajam mind you... he's been getting.. NO BITING!!! from me a lot these days.. yer la.. who can tahan maa?? ive started feeding him solids three times a day now.. with two snacks... it is quite difficult to be creative with his menu.. he's started eating chicken.. so i know that he's got protein.. quite difficult to find yogurt for babies here in malaysia.. maybe i'll start looking for suitable cheese soon...

cant wait to be done with the exam... but of course there is still more preparation to be done.. urghh..

and the studying begins... (supposedly!)

2008-05-25T05:21:00.002+01:00

my 2 week plus study holiday started last thursday... but sadly im not utilizing it the best way.. staying at home with ammar and having to study is already a challenge.. top it up with super duper hard chapters that i have to review?? make things worse!!! praying the next two weeks will be better days.. amin..

parents are holidaying in some ex-russian country.. so im always here at their place babysitting the maid and the house.. ??? schedule's been hectic as ive been here and there, driving sometime a screaming baby who doesnt want to be in his car seat.. phewuuhh... combining mommyhood and work is already a challenge.. try adding the exam stress!

we had barbecue last friday.. baby sister's bday.. super delicious tonnes of fat and calorie.. need to remind self that what goes in must have a way out.. anticipating future hamster mode... running on a treadmill for hours... must get back pre-marital body!! MUST! not just pre-pregnancy...

post singapore

2008-05-16T15:22:00.002+01:00

yeay!!! long weekend is finally here.. and this should be the start of my pulun mode.. but what am i doing??? enjoying and appreciating my macbook! hehehe.. been surfing for most of the night when supposed to be burying my nose in the book.. oh well.. lets hope for a more productive weekend.

i sill have two days of work next week.. and then im off for 2 and a half weeks! yippee.... bye bye pumping 3 times a day at work! i am free of the wyres and bottles for at least 2 weeks!!!

anyway, singapore trip was excellent.. the schedule was tight though. didnt even have any freaking time to do any shopping.. yikes!! that was my main agenda wasnt it??? 30 mins at the airport before boarding to KL - i managed to spend 90 sing dollar.. a pair of charles and keith for yours truly and baby tad for ammar.. sorry hubby.. nothing for you yet.. but dont worry, am planning a big bday celebration for you soon! hehehhe...

the trip was good for work..not good for the bo*bs though... was a pumping maniac throughout but since we went to visit shipyards for goodness sake, no lactation room was available.. but of course!!! they have thousands of MALE employees!!! so there i was, carrying two huge melons around! oh well, some sacrifices are worthwhile...

ammar was sooo happy to see me when he and the maid opened the door.. the way his face lights up when he realized im home.. PRICELESS!!!!

tagged!

2008-05-10T00:31:00.002+01:00

early saturday morning.. still have traces of illness but baby and big baby are sleeping in.. with nothing much to do except to freaking study... i will thus to the tag that ghoyye made me do.. ahaha

Fact 1

i love my big beautiful garden even if it's empty. i picture the garden to be very useful when ammar starts to learn riding the bike, play football or badminton...

Habit 2

when i lock the door, sometimes i came back a few seconds later to double check even when i had triple check it the first time..

Fact 3

i love mornings... that's when i can do most work or just take the time to breathe in fresh air

Fact 4

i watch my favourite movies or tv series again and again and again.. and can never get bored

Habit 5

ever since ammar's born, i check on him every 15 minutes or so when he's asleep just to make sure he's breathing okay.. sometimes when it's too dark and i cannot see his chest rising and falling, i put my and on his chest to feel it

Fact 6

i have two sets of wardrobe... one was for the super slim me... one is for me now... (obviously im bigger top and middle!) but im still hoping to fit in the wardrobe no 1

Fact 7

if we are super rich now, i am willing to drop FTWM and become SAHM anytime! lady of leisure.. bring it on!!!

Fact 8

i have a super duper yummy hubby who loves seeing me happy and give me everything i want!!! well, everything that's within his bank account reach.. i love you honey bunny...

dreaming of another pump!

2008-05-09T14:52:00.002+01:00

i'm officially a breast pump addict.. i already have three.. and im eyeing one intently... it's the medela freestyle which is portable and lightweight and comes with a nice tote bag.. but it costs a bomb! i will have to use it for my next baby to make it worth it.. hmm..... if only money grows on trees!

on a different note, im down with flu and sakit tekak.. courtesy of my baby boy... he's been having it for the past two weeks.. i thot im supposed to provide him with the antibodi.. unfortunately i dont have against his viral infection.. so in order to give him one, i have to be ill first! but poor baby, three nites in a row he's been throwing up... hopefully this weekend we'll all be cheery!

havent bought anything for mak dearest for mother's day... maybe we'll go find sthing tomorrow.. altho my initial plan is to sleep in... and hope to get better... lets see if all these ubat i telan is working or not...

To mommies everywhere...

2008-05-08T01:22:00.001+01:00

I got this from a colleague.. couldnt help to share!

(both men & women, sons & daughters - Need to read this)

BEING A MOTHER...

After 17 years of marriage, my wife wanted me to
take another woman out to dinner and a movie. She
said, 'I love you, but I know this other woman loves
you and would love to spend some time with you.'
* * *
The other woman that my wife wanted me to visit
was my MOTHER, who has been alone for 20 years,
but the demands of my work and my two boys had
made it possible to visit her only occasionally.
* * *
That night I called to invite her to go out for
dinner and a movie.
* * *
'What's wrong, aren't you well,' she asked?
* * *
My mother is the type of woman who suspects that a
late night call or a surprise invitation is a sign
of bad news.
* * *
'I thought it would be pleasant to spend some
time with you,' I responded. 'Just the two of us.'
She thought about it for a moment, and then said,
'I would like that very much.'
* * *
That Friday after work, as I drove over to pick her up I was a bit nervous.
When I arrived at her house, I noticed that she, too, seemed to be nervous
about our date. She waited in the door.
She had curled her hair and was wearing the dress
that she had worn to celebrate her last birthday on November 19th.
* * *
She smiled from a face that was as radiant as an angels.
'I told my friends that I was going to go
out with my son, and they were impressed,' she said,
as she got into that new white van.
'They can't wait to hear about our date'.
* * *
We went to a restaurant that, although not elegant,
was very nice and cozy. My mother took my arm
as if she were the First Lady. After we sat down,
I had to read the menu. Her eyes could only
read large print. Half way through the entries,
I lifted my eyes and saw Mom sitting there staring at
me. A nostalgic smile was on her lips. 'It was I
who used to have to read the menu when you were
small,' she said. 'Then it's time that you relax and
let me return the favor,' I responded.
* * *
During the dinner, we had an agreeable
conversation-nothing extraordinary but catching up
on recent events of each other's life. We talked so
much that we missed the movie.
* * *
As we arrived at her house later, she said,
'I'll go out with you again,
but only if you let me invite you.'
I agreed.
* * *
'How was your dinner date ?'
asked my wife when I got home.
'Very nice. Much more so than I could have imagined,'
I answered.
* * *
A few days later, my mother died of a massive heart attack.
It happened so suddenly that I didn't
have a chance to do anything for her.
* * *
Some time later, I received an envelope with a
copy of a restaurant receipt from the same place
mother and I had dined. An attached note said:
'I paid this bill in advance. I wasn't sure that I
could be there; but nevertheless, I paid for two
plates - one for you and the other for your wife.
You will never know what that night meant for me.
I love you, son.'
* * *
At that moment, I understood the importance of
saying in time: 'I LOVE YOU' and to give our loved
ones the time that they deserve. Nothing in life is
more important than your family. Give them the time
they deserve, because these things cannot be put off
till 'some other time.'
* * *
Somebody said it takes about 6 weeks to get back
to normal after you've had a baby.... somebody
doesn't know that once you're a mother, 'normal' is history.
* * *
Somebody said you learn how to be a mother by
instinct... somebody never took a three-year-old shopping.
* * *
Somebody said being a mother is boring....
somebody never rode in a car driven by a teenager with a driver's permit.
Somebody said if you're a' good' mother,
your child will 'turn out good'....
somebody thinks a child comes with
directions and a guarantee.
* * *
Somebody said you don't need an education to be a mother....
somebody never helped a fourth grader
with his math.
* * *
Somebody said you can't love the second child as
much as you love the first....
somebody doesn't have two children.
* * *
Somebody said the hardest part of being a mother
is labor and delivery....
somebody never watched her 'baby' get on the bus
for the first day of kindergarten ...
or on a plane headed for military 'boot camp.'
* * *
Somebody said a mother can stop worrying after her
child gets married....somebody doesn't know that
marriage adds a new son or daughter-in-law to a
mother's heartstrings.
* * *
Somebody said a mother's job is done when her last
child leaves home....somebody never had
grandchildren.
* * *
Somebody said your mother knows you love her,
so you don't need to tell her....
somebody isn't a mother.
* * *
Pass this along to all the 'mothers' in your life
And to everyone who ever had a mother. This isn't
just about being a mother; it's about appreciating
The people in your life while you have them....no matter who that person is.

Finally!

2008-05-05T01:11:00.001+01:00

nagging works! hehe...

after months of babbling to hubby to babyproof the house.. he finally did it yesterday! weehooo... now the crawling ammar can roam freely without me being too anal about everything... so what did hubby do???

1) attach the safety gate to the top of staircase..
2) clear up all the wyres especially the phone line which has been bersepah2 in ammar's room
3) baby proof our drawers..
4) pasang bedrail to our bed cause ammar now sleeps with us most of the time!
5) lower ammar's cot cause he can pull himself up..

hmmm.. what else? i think that's quite an achievement in one weekend!

another plus point.. after all the baby proofing.. ammar's room now is all his.. no more of our stuff in it... the toys have been lined up so he can play by himself in the room..while mommy and daddy watching tv just outside.. i need to buy baby mat and hang a few pictures to make it cozier and more comfortable for him..

not a bad weekend eh?

wasting saturday away...

2008-05-03T14:33:00.002+01:00

it is saturday nite. i am watching AF with hubby.... ??? it's hubby's choice.. not moi.. hehehe

didnt do much today... uerkk.... studies going lembap... after pasar tani, masak lunch, masak dinner.. im too tired. but we did our groceries... so that's done.. gardening dah settle just now. hopefully i have the urge to study tonite..

ammar is already moving around!!!! and we have not totally baby proofed the whole house! hmmphh... so we are on constant watch over him.. cause lots of wyres around the house.

i am dreading monday... tuesday.. wednesday..lots of work.. lots of appointments.. :-(

carsetters...

2008-05-02T01:38:00.001+01:00

another passing in the family.. this time it's hubby's uncle.. so we took one day off to attend the kebumi day.. hubby went all the way. but i stayed behind at their home while waiting for everything to finish.. then we head home to mak and apak's place.. luckily dah ada aircond.. kalau tak sure dah macam cacing kepanasan.. hubby wanted to wait until mlm after the tahlil...i dont feel good about it.. cause it's a 3-hour drive.. we'll be home really late.. and true enuff, at about 8 pm.. there's a blackout.. panasnyaaa... the kids were so uncomfortable.. we still went for the tahlil.. and left at about 10 pm.. and of course hubby is very tired.. cause instead of resting for the journey back, he just had to main gasing???? hmphhh... so this fabulous mom took over driving half way.. giler scary okay.. malam malam jalan alternatif plak tuh.. dah la pakcik makcik mat rempit naik motor main keluar je tak tgk kiri kanan.. nasib baik our cousin ikut balik and he teman me while i drove.. borak2.. we reached home at about 1 am.. salin baju terus zzzzzzzz... but hubby stayed up to watch liverpool vs chelsea... sempat lagi tuh...

so after that very tiring nite, hubby slept in while this mommy slaved away in the garden... this time i tried to plant terung and cauliflower.. hopefully they will grow! the tomatoes nampak like want to come out already.. the pak choy are still quite young.. hopefully they'll survive.. late afternoon we went to TKC.. visit mummy's old school.. had bbq.. it was fun but very hot and tiring.. went back to my room, BR3.. but didnt get the chance to meet the current house captain.. ammar was okay throughout.. but i guess he was exhausted and wasnt in the mood to be cheeky and cheerful.. all the travelling we did the past one week was truly tiring... penang, perak, seremban..

and now i am back at work.. with another deadline in two days... urghhhh... i doubt i can do much today... cause now i have to study the properties sector... !!! oh why cant they just give me oil and gas???

weekend update

2008-04-28T09:25:00.001+01:00

we went back to butterworth last saturday to visit my uncle's family.. my cousin passed away (Al-Fatihah to him).. at 26, after 12 days in ICU.. we didnt manage to go back for the funeral on thursday.. so we just went to ziarah the family.. it's a sad tragedy.. but Allah loves him and im sure is taking care of him now..

we did a day trip.. asked my younger sis to join so that we can take turns driving.. but she didnt bring her P sticker.. so end up with hubby driving 75% and me 25%.. man.. my driving sucks! really have to brush up on my skill.. im just sooo terrified of fast cars.. if i dont do sthing about this, i may be totally terrified of driving.. something which i loved doing sometime ago!!

ammar was a bit cranky over the weekend.. maybe because he's tired of the journey.. or he's uncomfortable.. (he's had runny nose and cough for a few days now..) or maybe he's teething.. i dont know.. but it took him about an hour to sleep yesterday.. with both of us in bed to lull him..

went to ikea yesterday... bought some stuff for out bathroom.. and it is soo much nicer now.. much more modern than before.. i really couldnt believe the previous owner's taste! nasib baik the tiles and what not are okay.. next project?? hmm.... family pictures in black and white! but can only pour my heart and soul doing that after the exam.. i still have lots to study!! :-(

40 minutes door to door

2008-04-24T15:51:00.000+01:00

apalah nasib aku.. kena analyze company ayam???? again??? i did this before in 2006.. seems like this ayam keeps following me around!! cuckooo ooo ooooo.....

anyway, this was usually on my mind on my way back to work.. Im so glad to be living far away from the office.. I like to consider myself as someone working in the city, and live in the suburb.. of course the travelling is not entirely convenient.. but mind you, at this point of time, i dont think i am passionate about my job.. i feel that what im doing now is not valued much by those at the receiving end.. if i pack and leave, the company will run as usual.. im not the integral part of the corporation.. and that's what i hate about GLCs.. they do not value their staff as MNCs do.. to the big bosses, our work is just for us to fill idle time.. while us, being the creme de la creme.. slaved away perfecting all the minute detail of our task..

coming back to the main theme.. because of the so called 'dislike' i have, i prefer to spend my non working hours away from my work place. i could still remember back then when i was staying relatively near to the office, we usually have to pass the building on our way to shopping malls on weekends.. and this uneasy feeling creeping into me.. watching the building with heavy feeling, reminding that soon i will have to come back there and slave away..

nowadays, i have free and easy weekends.. with not even a single reminder of work around me.. total bliss, i tell ya.. work ends at 5 on friday.. and starts on monday at 8.. 0r 9.. hehe.. no guilt surrounding me even if deadline is sooo around the corner.. cause nowadays my priority have changed.. family first... work can wait

another plus point?? get to live far away from people from work.. hahaha.. peace people.. not that i dont like you.. but i dont like bumping into bosses at carrefour on a saturday... ??? talk about grocery shopping as destressing????

perhaps one day... when i am done being tied to the company.. i would want an office near home.. maybe a SOHO.. and hopefully then, i love my job to pieces.. and i can merge them with those who are most important to my life, my famili...

40 minutes door to door...

2008-04-24T03:21:00.000+01:00

ate too much

2008-04-23T15:56:00.002+01:00

we had our farewell dinner for kokly and family tonite.. they are going back to canada this friday so there's only 2 nights left. hopefully they'll be back soon. it's much funner with everyone around..

anyway it is much easier to put ammar to sleep nowadays. im trying to associate sleep with the lullaby song for him. so it acts like a signal.. song = sleep... after his last night feed, i'll just pat him and he'll try to sleep.. the only thing is that he still wants to feel that im nearby.. he'll grab any piece of me to make sure that im there helping him sleep, be it my hair, my flesh... anything! as much as i adore this treatment of him, i really hope that he can go to sleep on his own...

oh.. they started airing gossip girl last monday.. the latest instalment.. hopefully someone is kind enuff to download it.. love serena and dan! so cute!!!

bored and blank

2008-04-22T15:45:00.002+01:00

my tkc frens are arranging a balik college outing this labour day.. bless them for all the effort.. me? my task had been abolished! hehehe.. i really wanna go back.. but friday is work day and exam is sooo near... still thinking... perhaps there is a chance, if hubby is baik enuff to send me there..

Borang E

2008-04-21T15:21:00.002+01:00

It is the time of the year again! the tax filing return... and ive been searching high and low for all the receipts from the book purchases i made over the last year.. but could only managed to find 300 ringgit worth... urghh... im so disorganized! who is this and what have you done to lini azly??? the lini i know keep track of everything and i mean everything! im sure i bought about 1000 worth of books and magazines! am blaming it on the pindah randah we did back in 2007.. boy, we did lots of pemindahan back then.. melawati to kj mom's place to kj our place! no wonder i lose all the important receipts! including the cfa payment i made durin confinement! urghh..

again, weekend was relaxing.. managed to lepak2 around while hubby took care of ammar.. i cooked again during the weekend... quite an improvement! but i dont know how long that will last.. with the exam looming, perhaps it is better to concentrate more on the books than being a domestic goddess..??

anyway, ammar has started to move forward at about 7 months.. he's still struggling but he's moving! yes im thrilled.. but im not ecstatic.. if ammar wants to move forward, he's welcome to do so.. if he wants to reverse, it's entirely up to him.. but i guess that is a pretty remarkable milestone, eh!

it's almost my bedtime.. so i guess i'll log off now.. and hopefully ammar is still asleep when i put him in his cot! wish me luck!

me likey....

2008-04-21T00:59:00.002+01:00

Thank you darling hubby! Love ya! xoxo...

Monday blues..

2008-04-14T08:52:00.001+01:00

Work is making me puke! I am soooooo tired looking at the models, writing up papers.. attending people's info need.. urghhhhhhhhh

On a much cheerful note, weekend was wonderful.. first time in such a long time we actually had time lepaking at home.. and not going here and there, attending functions.. well, actually we did manage to go to OU and Subang Parade during the weekend.. plus the trip to Pasar Tani and what not.. but time management was better so we got both afternoon to ourselves.. I even managed to cook three meals during the weekend! That's definitely an achievement... while babysitting the kids, i managed to plant pak choy.. hopefully they will grow! our last attempt went down the drain... out of about 7 yg ditanam, currently only the tomato still surviving.. hopefully it will bear wonderful, ripe tomatos!!

Ammar turned 7 month last saturday.. we took him to his paed surgeon for a check up.. and we paid RM50 for like.. 10 mins consultation?? apparently the parents, especially the dad, was overly concerned about the minor surgery ammar went through 6 months ago. This week Ammar will be having his 2nd prevenar jab.. that's pneumoccocal vaccination..luckily we opted to have it with my sis, the doctor.. so only had to pay for the ubat at cost price... :-)

This week will be a busy week for the hubby.. auditor coming to visit his office.. so he may be home late everyday till wednesday.. urgh.. depressing! and i have no computer to busy myself! :(

oh well.. have to live with it..

999

2008-04-09T04:26:00.001+01:00

Work is crazy!! Help!!! ... and studies going nowhere!!! :-(

towards a healthy lifestyle..

2008-04-07T03:28:00.001+01:00

as usual, weekend was hectic.. 2 weddings, groceries, babysitting nephews. preparing ammar's food.. i really need more hours in a day to make this mommy and working work.. anyway, during my bonding session with ammar over the weekend, i multitasked by watching the oprah marathon.. they were showing dr oz's book.. You Staying Young.. it is such an eye opener.. perhaps after CFA, I will take a peek at the book and try to adjust our life accordingly..

of course with our current income, going totally organic is out of the question.. i only buy a few organic food.. veges which i cook during the weekend, ammar's food.. and some few other things.. but that is not my main concern... i think that we malaysians eat way too much food than our body can handle.. roti canai, nasi lemak, curry... these are all high calorie food and we sometime didnt realize we are overeating since we do not exercise, do not walk from one place to another.. no wonder the obesity cases are growing around here...

so from now.. i am going to try and make sure that my family eat healthily.. more veges and fruits.. less santan... less rice.. more grilled menus.. or baked.. less frying.. yup, it is definitely difficult.. but apparently two weeks is all it takes for our brain to reprogramme.. lets see if that works..

as for me.. i'm under my weight management programme.. so no rice for dinner for me! :-( will be devouring cereal from now on..

Pumpy pumpy pictures galore!!

2008-04-03T00:43:00.003+01:00

EBM in Avent via..

EBM in playtex liner

EBM stocks in my freezer.. some in the liners are packed in 5 inside another bag.. ammar punya EBM filled half my freezer.. so hubby.. how to shop groceries??

Ammar's EBM inventory.. must be recorded so i know which bag is expiring and how many do i have in stock..

To kak hannah, hopefully this will help you in entering the rat race soon after being in exclusive mommyland.. ;-)

Pumpy pumpy..

2008-04-02T09:09:00.002+01:00

This entry is for the new mommy, Hannah.. who'll be going back to work soon..

I always knew that i wanted to bfeed ammar for as long as possible.. so i bought my pump earlier on.. but i will blog about these separately.. In preparation to go back to work, i started to introduce bottles to ammar since he was four weeks.. but not everyday.. once in a while, i would ask hubby to feed him and alhamdulillah, he does not have problems with artificial teat! I started to pump about the same time.. to build up stock.. but i only get a ciput 1oz or 1.5 oz a day.. so what did this mommy do?? i pumped about two to three times a day and put them all together when they are of the same temperature.. i managed to have about 15 bottles by the time i have to start work and this is far from banyak..

Anyway, in the office, i was not producing as much as ammar is drinking.. compared to other mommies, i was producing very little.. while using single pump, i could only pumped out about 3 oz per session. and each session takes soo long.. then i borrowed my fren's double pump.. although the yield was not significantly different, i managed to cut pumping time by half..

basically, the first few weeks of work, i pumped round the clock.. 4 times at work.. 7.30, 10 am, 1.30 and 4.30.. then at home, i will pump at 8 pm while ammar was feeding one side.. and wake up at 1.30 am to pump and then at 5.30.. so how many times? about 7 altogether.. it was damn tiring... but i was adamant.. ammar needs me to be tough.. I have tried absolutely everything.. from drinking milkmaid tea to eating a lot.. to pumping like crazy. But the max that i can pump per session is still about 3 to 4 oz.. occassionally i get more than 5 but no more..

after a few weeks, i start to have a pattern.. i wake up at 5.30 am, and do one session.. arrive at the office and include one more session before work.. then three times during working hours.. then before i go to sleep at 10.30.. during weekends, i try to keep the wake up and pump session and also the before sleep session.. as a result, i managed to increase my stockpile from a lousy 15 or so bottles to about 50 bottles / packets now..

I was sooo obsessed to have huge stock pile because of the possibility of me going outstation.. and also staying late at the office.. having to attend kenduris.. so i worked really hard those first few weeks to keep stocks.. now, i'm toning down.. ammar is already eating solids.. and our fridge cannot handle too many frozen items...btw the stocks came in handy when we had our date nights!!

Anyway, k hannah asked me how do i save my EBM.. Initially i used Avent Via system.. but it can only be reusable up to four times.. so i only bought 10 containers.. and use playtex liners.. it is pre-sterilized plastics suitable for EBM.. i tried spectra bags before but they are much more expensive. so far playtex liners are the cheapest brand around. spectra came with their own pengikat.. so i recycle those and when it is not enuff, i just use getah nasi lemak.. just be reminded that you should buy bigger size liners so that it is easier to ikat.. after the liners, i kumpulkan in fivers.. five EBM bags into one sandwich bag.. and tulis the dates. must be very systematic cause you will tend to loose count!

i will post the images when i am lifted out of the firewall!

all in all, i only accepted the fact that i am a low capacity mommy a few months after work.. when i redha with this fact, it actually made things easier.. i was jealous of mommies who only had to pump twice a day.. and they have sufficient output for a whole day! i have to work harder than other mommies to ensure that my beloved ammar has sufficient to drink.. but i persevered.. Alhamdulillah.. rezeki ammar and me still there.. hopefully both son and i will continue for as long as possible..

there are many more outrageous stories i have regarding pumping.. but that will be another entry!

Terengganu experience

2008-04-01T09:01:00.001+01:00

Back at work after a working weekend.. daymnnnn..i am really really tired! Plus ive got tonnes of work to do.. and now at about 4 pm, i have a headache.. urghh... i miss my sleep! yesterday, on the way to Gebeng, we stopped by restoran Hai Peng in Kemaman for a taste of their famous coffee.. ive been there in saturday but didnt really like it.. so when we went there, they ordered me a cup.. being polite, i drank half of it.. lo and behold.. yours truly is not really a coffee person.. so i was wide awake the whole of yesterday.. and guess who was wide awake when i managed to sleep??? my dear little baby boy of course.. he also got a taste of hai peng coffee and was wide awake and chatty and 3 am.. oh dear...

anyway, the trip was good.. i didnt manage to get my much needed rest.. but i hope hubby and ammar had fun.. luckily we decided to go to the beach on the day we arrived.. so ammar had his first beach experience.. we brought him near the gigi air and he was stunned initially..

the drive to kemaman from KL was okay.. we stopped by few places.. makan keropor lekor panas.. what i didnt get to do? swim and spa.. maybe soon.. craving for full body massage!

Blogging attempt 1

2008-03-28T08:00:00.001Z

This is the first time i'm updating via email.. cause im desperate! the hampeh firewall is blocking all my ways.. i'm leaving for terengganu tomorrow.. for company visits.. although i'm berat hati to go.. im thankful that it's during weekend and mizan can take a day off to jaga ammar while i go on put my working mommy cap.. the bright side is, we get to stay in Awana Kijal.. which ive heard is nice.. so, let's pray that it is going to be a nice work cum vacation

After being on diet for few days, im dying to eat out.. probably will try that place in Uptown.. then have to go back and pack..

dont wanna write much.. just in case this method is not working.. penat je blog panjang2 tapi not published.. have a good weekend everybody!

resting day

2008-03-24T12:09:00.005Z

notty me for eating the choc cupcake and langgar moi diet... the cup cake sudah expired and thus this mommy was on mc the whole day... and i spent most of the time recuperating.. with ammar.. and time well spent... spent most of the time in bed with my precious one. but due to my ke'taklarat'an.. i had to teach the maid to bathe ammar.. and let her do it today.. well, hafta learn to let go some responsibilities..

weekend was hectic altho it wasnt supposed to be. we had no plans what so ever. and suddenly things appear.. so we were here and there.. from serdang to shah alam, and puchong and dj... so today i got to rest..

anyway, ammar is showing signs of wanting to crawl.. he's been lifting his cute b**t.. hehe.. kelakar and comel sungguh.. but the house is not fully babyproof yet.. must do that soon!

babes fair 08

2008-03-21T15:11:00.002Z

There is a baby fair at PWTC this weekend. I went there during lunch time just now and bought LOTSAAA stuff.. firstly, MAM is having a really good offer. i bought one bottle from them cause im planning to change Ammar from Avent to BPA free bottles.. ive been reading a lot about the dangers of using baby bottles with BPA and certainly dont want Ammar to use it anymore if possible. problem is, i have about 13 Avent bottles and one Dr Brown's.. all ada BPA.. and to start collecting new bottles? i need more capex.. so, man man laa...

to newly entitled moms... do think twice before buying all the popular bottles in the market nowadays.. at the end of the day, the most important thing is the baby is nowhere near harmful chemical..

i also bought two more reusable diapers from freshbots. ammar's cloth diapers now have increased to nine altogether! tee hee hee.... nowadays, i only have to buy his disposable diaper once every three weeks.. sometimes we can go for longer even! and what do we use with the extra money? I'm gearing it towards organic food.. bit by bit..

anyway, after my meeting at damansara, i went straight to OU to celebrate kokly's bday at chillis. there's this great organic store opposite cinnabon.. ive never noticed it before! i bought their apples cause i heard organic apples are super juicy! and ammar's second box of cereal.. he's okay with rice cereal.. so after this i'm starting him with oatmeal.. hopefully after that we can start veges.. fruit will be the last cause they are sweet.. wanna make sure that ammar is comfortable with bland food first..

of picnic and paella..

2008-03-20T13:21:00.004Z

Picnic was super fun! despite having to wake Ammar up and bathe him at quarter to 7, i think both of us enjoyed the outing. ammar especially... being cuddled by almost everyone.. am glad the picnic went smoothly... and not so much food were wasted... so, will think of some other event for next year!

after driving a crying ammar for about 15 mins, both of us were sooo tired, we cuddled for a bit in the afternoon.. bonding time.. mommy and son... and at about half 3, all three of us left for pavilion. fazly's back from london.. and it's time the londoners gather and chat.. jln bukit bintang was sooo jammed.. as usual!!! had paella at la bodega.. my paella experience is spain was muchhh nicer!!! and now, all of us... are tired..

ammar is already asleep... daddy is lepaking around.. and mommy.. surfing!

thanks everyone for the wonderful gatheringsss.... good to meet up with all of you...

ammar.. mommy is soo proud of you baby! we survived our mommy and son outing together!!

Eventful weekend..

2008-03-17T05:46:00.003Z

Weekend was a bliss.. We started Ammar with solids.. organic rice cereal.. and he took it so well!! am so proud of him.. And we had our first date night since Ammar was born.. what did we do ??? shopping of course!!!!

I am a firm believer that mommy and daddy must spend quality time with each other.. not only when the baby is sleeping and you mostly talk about baby's development and what not.. but to go on a real date.. so after ammar's six months bday, we made our own milestone post being parents.. and it was nice.. eventhough we called home every half an hour to check that he is okay.. it was still a good outing..

At six months, ammar is mastering turning and tossing around.. he can sit supported and is always in a good mood.. a very cheerful baby! today is the third day ammar's being fed solids.. and so far, it's okay.. it was quite difficult for me rather than himself, to wean. I am so used to him being 100% dependant on me for his nutritions. but i have to learn to let him grow up.. he'll be doing that a lot starting from now.. *sigh*

by the way, i am starting to reduce my 'baby fat' weight now.. Wish me luck!!! im gonna need tonnes of it..

before i zzzz

2008-03-14T15:15:00.002Z

My baby is now six months old!! How time flies... six months ago, he was just a tiny little baby with small feet and fingers.. now... he's such a lovely boy whose always smiling at people.. I am so blessed!

On a different note, the election took place last weekend.. i did my responsibility... somehow having a kid makes you wanna make sure that the future will be a good place to live in... lets see how this new state government works. i have a few proposals in hand to pass to our DUN! hehehe.. but will do that after CFA...

i think i wanna learn dancing... looks fun!

Jumping Ammar..

2008-03-06T14:03:00.003Z

Firstly, thanks awanis for your comment... I went to Babyland just now and yeay!!!! They've got exactly the jolly jumper that i want... the last one and on discount! altho not that cheap, but a lot cheaper than the price i had to pay if i were to import it directly from Japan! woohooo... ammar was asleep when we got home.. so cannot try on him... but hopefully he'll like it.. thanks again, awanis! must ask you about the lindam gate... how useful it is.. *wink*

on a different note, work had been crazy.. almost entire day was spent at MO.. attending conference and meeting.. had a small group meeting with a certain prime minister's son... he definitely knows what he was talking about and not just riding on his dad's popularity.. good for him.. as for me, i totally forgot that this is a guy with a D****K in front of his name.. selamba2 je aku meng 'I' 'U' dengan die.. oh well.. must remember to be more respectful! hehehe...

it's getting late.. later!!!

import export...

2008-03-03T23:56:00.004Z

I'm thinking of buying Ammar a jolly jumper.. it will have to be shipped from Japan... or flown into from there if i want it faster... but it will cost a BOMB! it will be good for ammar.. he can jump all he want... (read here.. EXERCISE) .. cause im telling ya.. he's got big thighs! hehehe...

Motherhood is costing me arms and legs... thank god we have TESCO for his clothes! :-)

now should i or should i not??????

annual dinner 2008

2008-03-01T09:35:00.003Z

the company's annual dinner was last night.. it was a miracle that on a rainy friday night, we managed to reach mandarin oriental from our place in an hour.. and managed to register in time.. :-) the food was okay... not great but okay la.. what more can you expect? the artis jemputan were from an era of which i am totally clueless about.. except for Amy and Search.. aiyo... veryyy good la this Amy.. Ive never liked him much cause he kinda like scream when he sings... tapi semalam they did corporate rock.. hehe.. suit up nicely.. and sing slow rock songs..

the best part was.... I won a lucky draw!!! hehe.. okay.. so it might not be the 32 inch lcd screen tv but okla... i never get to win lucky draw.. the prize.. dont know yet.. we'll know on monday..

opps..... ammar is screaming!! toodalooo

taking a break

2008-02-28T04:33:00.002Z

Just have to stop from all those analysis and report writing.. sungguh letih otakku!!!! btw, here is ammar in his exersaucer... soooo excited! hehehe..

initially i wanted to buy the exersaucer from amazon US.. very cheap compared to what we paid.. but apparently there is a geographical boundary to buying baby products from there.. of course, if we buy it in singapore it would have been much cheaper..but bila pulak nak ke singapore? and ammar is growing by the day... so we have to purchase it fast..

hubby said he'll sponsor the exersaucer.. so apa lagi.. we chose one which we think ammar will love.. he had a a trial run before we buy it.. and he seemed to like it.. so okay lah...

now, after about a month having it.. he's still loving it... main sampai tertido2 dalam tu ye baby boy... it's very worth it i guess..

btw exersaucer is similar to walker but it is stationary.. so much safer for babies cause there were lots of accidents involving babies and walkers.. and we are staying in a double storey house.. and our family living room is upstairs.. near the tangga.. better opt for this exersaucer.. plus, it can whirl and bounce.. very good activities for ammar!

You are teething!

2008-02-27T13:01:00.005Z

Dear Ammar,

you had a slight fever last night.. and was sooo weak.. you didnt smile at daddy when he came back from work.. we took your temperature.. it was 37.8 celcius.. although it was below 38, we were still worried.. we gave you 2ml of pcm... and i use damp towel and wipe your face and body to cool it off... by the time you went to sleep, it was down to 37.1.. but you didnt wake up all night to feed... you just want someone to pat you lightly when you were uncomfortable.

when i left to work, your temperature was about 37.4.. mommy kissed you goodbye, and pray hard that you are going to be okay.. im very sad that i had to leave you...

i came back from work at 6pm.. and you were fine! thank god! I took a look at your gum.. and true enuff, there was a small bump! i think you are teething now, big guy! you are not yet 6 months, but you are growing up so fast! mummy will surely miss your early days later on...

anyway my dear ammar, im just glad that your fever had a reason.. dont worry baby boy, mommy and daddy will be with you all the way!

xoxox
mommy loves you!

home sweet home...

2008-02-25T14:24:00.002Z

my parents are off to hanoi, i think, for a vacation. they kinda do this holiday thingy on a monthly basis now since my mom is retired and dad works on his own. since im the one living the closest to them, we have agreed to drop by everyday to feed the cat, switch on the light and bla bla..so we went just now, to do just that. since i was holding ammar, we just sat at the porch waiting for hubby to finish the tasks... and i feel calm..

going back to my parents is always something that never fail to lift my spirit.. that was the house that i spent growing up, learned to ride my bike, dealt with my first crush, and most importantly, learn to love and cherish my family. i can always count on being happy at that place.. even when it was empty like just now.. just being there makes everything alright..

maybe that was the reason why i decided to come back to kelana jaya to raise my own family. i just wanna be close to the place where i feel so much secure.. and full of warmth.. i hope i'll be able to create a home just like that for ammar and my other kids to grow up.. where they'll willingly come home to be safe and happy..

i've always saved my parent's landline number as 'house' in my mobile.. this morning, i add a 'home' into my contact detail.. and i hope this home we are living in will create memories of happiness to the ones living here...

sleep baby sleep..

2008-02-24T13:01:00.002Z

Ammar refused to sleep at his usual bedtime tonite. hubby is still in the room trying to coax him to sleep. ive been there just now but got so frustrated after half an hour. he keeps on rolling over and chatting.. despite my attempt to gelapkan the whole room.. perhaps he knows we are working tomorrow.. and need the extra attention.. babies are smart... but i am taking a break. i need to do some surfing...

life with a baby is so totally different.. but in good ways. sure, i have to think about so many things everyday, but suprisingly i managed. (so far).. going out with a baby is a task i have mastered a bit. i dont lug around a diaper bag. my handbag is now officially the diaper bag. just 2 diapers, 1 extra clothing, wipes and nursing cover.. my stuff has been reduced to two. mobile and wallet. that's it.. so u see, ammar is taking over about 80% of my life and space!

today is the hari penamaan calon. tomorrow the campaign will start, i think. this is my first time to mengundi.. but the competition in my area is not too tight.. i have a feeling who will win. but anyway i'll do my duty to the country and line up next saturday

alright, i think i have left the two boys for quite some time now.. better have a look at them both.. nite2!

yeay!

2008-02-24T07:28:00.002Z

Hoollaaa!!!!!!!!! WE'RE CONNECTED TO THE INTERNET!!! after weeks trying, finally we are hooked up. via streamyx of course, since we've tried the wireless and it doesnt work at our place.. next thing in line.. i'm gonna get me an apple laptop! wonder when THAT will happen. currently, i'm using hubby's computer when he's sleeping! hehehe..

anyway, updates on us... ammar is already 5 months.. and still exclusively on breastmilk.. his toys collection aka educational things have now increased because mommy is soooo easily attracted to everything in advertisements! or promoted by other moms.. we bought him the ultra expensive exersaucer last month and he is loving it still... will blog on this separately.. and mommy has turned cheapo that ammar is now using cloth diaper, not disposable diapers.. teeheehee... also will blog on that later... all in all, ammar has grown so much in size as well as in his personality.. he is more than 7kgs and size M diaper is already quite small.. and he is soo much easier to take care of now..

other than that, im still behind in my studies.. work has been okayy... im still demotivated after earlier of the year event (check previous posts)... but alhamdulillah.. we are all healthy, still got money to do our groceries and are constantly entertained by our little guy!.. oh..i'm still the oversized lini.. long way to go to get to pre pregnancy body.. but i'm keeping faith..

by the way, a lot of people gave births last few weeks. amelia, k hannah and k nani... all gurl babies! congratulations!!!!!!!!!! and if u r anything like me, going over to the cot every 15 minutes to check if ur baby is still breathing is normal! i still do that nowadays! nampaknya ammar ada banyak gurlfrens la lepas ni kan??

okay.. ive got to stop now cause need to settle some stuffs for tomorrow... will definitely continue to blog later.. IM SO HAPPY WE HAVE INTERNET!!!!

in between of things

2008-02-19T08:33:00.003Z

before anybody mentioned anything, i did try to write a couple of posts offline.. but somehow it doesnt feel the same.. lame excuse, yeah i know.. but that's the more reason to get myself a new laptop once we get hooked up to streamyx, eh?? and hopefully the streamyx thingy goes well.. right now we have dial up connection which is sooo 20th century. but suprisingly it is fast enough for my surfing consumption...

there are sooo many things that i wanna blog about.. about me, about ammar, about things in general.. but it's 20 mins to 5.. and i wanna pray before i go back home.. so i guess till i can squeeze time again!

apa punya polisi ini???

2008-01-09T05:52:00.000Z

I am a very angry staff at the moment.. It's not that I dream of big promotions and performance review.. but i believe that when credit is due.. give it! It's such an insult to reject one's promotion on the basis of entrance date.. and not service date! i know most of you may not understand.. but i think it's better to not dedahkan everything for the sake of this 'superb' organization that im working in..

I worked my ass off last two years, and still cannot clinch that promotion.. hampeh.. what more can i do??? actually, i wasnt expecting one this year.. but the fact that the boss already forwarded my name and the HR didnt approve based on the fact that I started service in 2006, then that is very lame... very very lame... paengajarannya.. do average work.. in 3 years, you will definitely get promoted. HR policy which still supported seniority and not quality of work performed is soooooo backdated.. and with current environment, definitely difficult to compete with other MNCs.

oh well.. that's my EXEC II two cents worth..

2008-01-08T09:03:00.000Z

I despise a certain organization which did not recognize the value of its staffs....

Mi casa... in the making of a perfect crib

2007-12-25T23:58:00.000Z

Ikea is definitely the best!!!! Our mission statement (at least mine) was to set up the office/study room that we have now. Previously, we only have two tables, one chair, one bookcase and zillion things.. so on saturday, we went on to buy Billy bookcase from Ikea.. hubby set it up on sunday.. after arranging and rearranging.. in between soothing ammar.. (he tends to be a wee bit cranky when we are home!) finally we decided to buy another corner case.. but not billy's... it is called beno.. a cd case.. off we went again to ikea.. and hubby bought his very the nice chair..

christmas was spent finishing up the work.. mounting the cabinet to the wall so that it wouldnt fall off.. kemas kemas and by lunch time.. done!!!! pictures are up.. tinggal nak kemas sikit2 je lagi.. but it can function as an office/study room now! what's left for the room is a futon and a coffee table so that it can easily be converted to a guest room should our current guest room be turned into ammar's room later on.. tapi takpe la.. that is my mid term plan... with window of 2-5 years...

Next in line is yours truly's master bedroom... nak add bedside table.. and tempat gantung tuala.. and then ammar's nursery... nak add rocking chair... hmmm... so many things so little time...but very very the exciting!!!

Size 12 is not fat!

2007-12-19T02:10:00.000Z

Not in a good mood today.. although it is bonus day... so pardon the angry vibes

I really hate it when people came up to me and say... 'U seem to be gaining weight after your pregnancy'... urmm hello!!! dont u know that i know that already?? Malays really like to say the obvious.. I am not you.. I do not lose weight easily.. if i try to go on diet now, i am not sure if my baby will have enough to eat? dont you know how bad it is for me to see my own face in the mirror? and how very very sad i am having to put away all my clothes in another box.. labeling it my thin clothes.. hoping that maybe one day i will get to wear it again.. how very unhappy i am going shopping for bigger clothes??? and end up buying so few because i do not want to waste money on something that i may not wear in the future because hopefully i'll get back into shape..

Of course i put on weight.. i gave birth at the start of my maternity leave.. it's not like i went to spa for the whole two months.. i have issues with low supply.. i have to eat more.. and anyway, do u know that I am actually at my ideal weight?? yes ladies and gentlemen.. this fat face you see, it is how im supposed to be for ideal wieght.. it's just that u have never seen me like this before..

I wonder how these people were brought up.. no manners?? no courtesy??? or they just like to put people down just to cheer them up...

I am a working mommy.. praying hard each day that i have enough to give to my baby, supporting dear hubby as what a wife should be.. at the same time trying to squeeze studying in between.. am i complaining?? i hope not.. because this is my choice.. i have to live it... but do i need negativity around me??? no thank you!

Love doesnt cost a mountain

2007-12-17T04:33:00.000Z

That is Ammar's latest picture.. taken after the trip to the paediatric surgeon, Dr Zul, last Saturday. He had to do minor procedure .. kesian ammar.. penat and maybe menahan sakit.. sambil tertido2 dalam car seat.. i wasnt able to be in the doctor's clinic sebab cannot tahan to see my baby being cut.. but everything went well.. alhamdulillah...

On a different note, babies really dont care how expensive the things you buy for them..I tried giving the best things for ammar.. from bottles.. to clothes.. to diapers.. but really, they have no idea the price and doesnt really care.. it's just us mothers who think that we are not providing the best if we do not give them among the good brands.. especially us career moms.. guilty of not being there 24/7 led us to buy lots of things.. toys.. clothes..

anyway, on my last trip to singapore.. while being stranded at changi, i did a little shopping spree.. feeling guilty, i bought ammar toys.. something like a gym.. ada banyak2 music.. costs about 80 ringgit.. and ammar loved it sooooooo much.... last two weeks, i bought another playgym for him.. he needs a lot of things in twos.. since he goes for daycare at mak's place and weekend and night time at our home.. takkan nak angkut semua benda kan??.. it was about 200 ringgit.. and guess what? he doesnt really like it.. maybe he feels trapped underneath a lot of animals ..but i cannot return that gym to mothercare now.. past 10 days window.. hopefully he'll like it when he's a bit bigger.. so there u go.. he doesnt care the price.. as long as it suits his needs, then it is ok...

by the way.. i sooooo love christmas season.. the songs.. the lights.. so looking forward to the cartoons they'll be showing.. can still remember decorations along oxford street, the ice skating ring at marble arch.. it was even better in canada.. houses were amazingly decorated with lights.. and not to forget the boxing day sale! sini ada year end sale je la. itu pon not that exciting..

Busy busy bee...

2007-12-16T04:09:00.000Z

saturday was soo hectic.. my day started with sjmc trip.. ammar had a little minor procedure.. and then off we went to pavilion... my take on the latest shopping centre.. very very expensive.. not in my price range at all! i only bought 3 stems of artificial flower.. itu pon sangat mahai! but atleast ive been there.. and ammar was soo good the whole time.. tido jer.. hehe. agaknya sakit kot after the trip to the doctor...

we did groceries at giant later in the afternoon and pasar malam.. masak.. makan...watched the nany diaries.. and by 11 pm i was flat..........so today... after doing everything yesterday... we are sooo free!!! so hubby is off with the car.. spending more money maintaining it.. im here at mom's place for lunch.. doing internet banking and ammar is sleeping in his little aquarium swing...

btw, at 3 months, ammar weighs 6 kg!! am i producing a sumo kid? hehehe.. takpe la.. im pretty sure he'll be thin in the future.. if he follows hubby's side.. if on the other hand my jawa gene is stronger, ammar definitely has to exercise nanti.. but not to worry... im thinking swimming lessons.. taekwondo.. soccer class... hehehe... banyak dlm list mommy nih...

Happy 3rd Month Birthday Baby Boy!

2007-12-12T04:18:00.000Z

My baby is now 3 month old today!! Dah besar dan bulat sungguh mukanya.. he he he ... anyway, it's been sooo long since i last updated.. Thanks to my semi-gov company, who blocked blogger!!! URGHHHH.. bosan sungguh.. but life has been hectic ever since i started working... report season... private placement.. extra task.. add pumping sessions to that.. walla... i am a supermom!!

yes peeps.. ammar is still 100% depending on me for his nutrients.. some days i get sooo stressed because demand is more than production.. but more stress = less production.. i have to wake up at night to pump to make up for his demand.. now i know what mothers feel and do to give their children the best.. biarlah mommy ni berpenat lelah asal anak dapat the best!

did my house warming a few weeks back.. it was a very fun day! lots of people came.. lucky we did in two batches.. family and friends.. cause we had two peaks!!! penat sehhh... but food cukup.. ppl are happy.. everyone got to see ammar.. good good... the only setback was that i did not get much chance to borak2.. ye lah.. host has to table hop.. so, had to do my very best to juggle between the guests...

bonus and gaji coming in next week. hopefully it's good! need to buy few furnitures and most importantly.. new pump! plus, kena replenish my savings yg dah depleted over the last few years...

wopps... lunchie time.. hopefully ive got time to blog some more!!!

a quickie..

2007-10-04T14:44:00.000+01:00

someone tagged me... but i'll do that another time.. dont have much time to update pon.. it's quarter to 10pm.. and after a rather busy day... baru la sempat online.. went to the bank this morning... erkkk... menipis simpanan ku di asb... the cabinet guy is coming tomorrow (hopefully!!) so have to siapkan the money to pay him.. ive done tukar duit raya.. but this year's budget is a bit smaller.. sorry lah anak2 sedara ku.. ada potongan 50% tahun ni berbanding thn lepas.. hehehe... takpe.. im thinking of buying them bunga api sikit...

raya preparation is very bad... i didnt buy any kuih raya.. thot of buying the kuihs that jutch is selling but no point since i tak masuk office bulan puasa.. (but jutch actually came to my house last weekend! darn...) so mertuaku tak dapat la kuih raya tahun ni... thot of buying them baju raya.. but tatau lah sempat ke tak.. dont even know if it is feasible.. have to rely 100% on hubby.. but hubby said better if i tag along.. aiyooo.. how???? the baby needs me constantly.. mana buleh bawak die ke bazar raya? hmm.... payah nih.. nasib i dont have to buy anything for my parents.. hehe.. bagi duit raya je la.. i think that is a better option.. taste mereka tinggi bangatt!!! :-)

anybody saw front cover of NONA this month???? datin norjuma sungguh kurus sekali... kena tau ni apa tips menguruskan badan from her.. very the amazing! maybe i should go to slim world.. banyak je sucess story die? ada ziana zain, wardina.. heehe... i just need to know how to shrink the face.. any ideas??

me and my emails...

2007-10-03T07:22:00.000+01:00

Even on mat leave im still checking my office email.. to keep me update on latest news in my working world.. i think im crazy! but i soo dont want to be behind after this 2 months.. sure sengsara nak membaca balik all the things yg dah tertinggal.. so once or twice a day, here i am, online... checking mails and what not...

anyway, i absolutely feel that the mistake i made was not to move into our new home earlier. i should have settled things way earlier.. having this big thing at the back of my mind is really not good.. keep on thinking of the new house.. that i should be going there to kemas apa2 yg patut.. problem is, when im there, i cant do much with ammar needing to be nursed almost every hour.. mat leave is supposed to be ammar and me time.. not ammar, me and the new house.. so im lobbying hubby so that we finish everything that we need to do with the house this weekend.. and then pindah.. peace of mind! the renovation work should finished long time ago..(before yours truly give birth!) but alhamdulillah it's done now... tinggal nak pasang kitchen cabinet on friday.. and we're good to go..

btw im hooked to this story.. diary ramadan rafiq.. haritu they aired the first season.. now dah ada season baru plak.. bukan la best sgt pon.. but i guess it kinda filled the time before bukak pose.. this year, no bukak pose at hotels like last year.. hik hik.. tak pe la.. maybe next time.. :-)

some random pics

2007-10-01T13:41:00.001+01:00

Ammar's outing...and mummy's too!

2007-10-01T12:55:00.000+01:00

yesterday, ammar followed mummy and daddy to OU!!! yeayyy... this kid needs to know that his mommy loves shopping... or window shopping! hehehe... so better start him right! well, atleast the purpose of us going there was to find his stuff... so that should be okay, right! we wanted to buy an infant to toddler rocker by fisher price.. tapi hampeh sungguh.. satu new wing OU pon takdak.. so need to go to plaza damas cause that's the only place which i know is selling it.. hopefully ammar will like the seat.. since mommy dia punya la giler2 buat research mana nak cari benda nih...

in the end, we bought something to suck things out of his nose.. kesian.. banyak nangis anak mommy ni sampai sumbat2 sikit hidung.. and earth mama angel baby bottom balm. going organic for his things.. trying to start a healthy lifestyle! hehehe.. ingat nak carik baju raya for the mommy but all the baju siap costs 400 and above.. what the heck??? takpe la.. mommy pakai baju tok je la raya nih.. unless daddy is kind enuff to buy mummy one nice baju raya! hik hik...

ammar was soooo good... tido aje die sepanjang mommy and daddy menshopping2.. but we have already set the time.. max 2 hours cause mr ammar marwan will definitely want his feed in two hours.. so bile nak balik je... mmg ammar lapar! ehehe.. but it was definitely a good day out! boleh mommy bawak ammar jalan2 lagi ok!

later yesterday we went to our new house.. barang2 sudah masuk.. tinggal nak mengemas sajer.. aduishhh... nasib barang tak banyak.. so ammar pon diheret bersama.. but he was good... slept all the way masa daddy pasang crib ammar.. i was supposed to go there again today.. but kemalasan crept into me.. instead.. i stayed home and continued with my confinement.. ie, tungku, param, pilis, bengkung and what not.. heheheh...

by the way, CFA books arrived today... banyak nyeeee kena study... urghhh.. but am going to take it slowly..nak enjoy cuti puas2.. kekekke

2 weeks on...

2007-09-26T13:30:00.000+01:00

2 weeks into confinement... and im feeling... not too bad... the stitches have healed.. atleast i hope so... just a recap.. i was cut about 2 and a half inches! and i think i have haemorrhoid.. courtesy of pushing the baby sooo hard that something else decided to come out as well...hehehe.. anyway, lin came by after work.. and i think by the time she went back.. i was almost fully recovered.. but better be patient.. and limit the walking... hubby is saying ive walked too much.. up and down... ye la.. kalau ikutkan his side... someone in confinement should refrain to just one floor.. choose upstairs or downstairs.. hehe.. but this wife of him... buka puasa pon nak join.. org datang pon nak sibuk2 lepak sama... kekeke

Ammar Marwan is doing fine.. i think he has gained weight.. dah ada double chin dah sekarang nih.. or it might just be my illusion.. since he's feeding every 2 hours.. im officially a cow.. but if it's good for him.. i am willing to be a cow.. hehhehehe...

i had my first topping and tailing ammar just now.. for those yg tak tau.. it's just a posh word for mandi lap2... hehe.. so far, tok has been the one bathing ammar... but this mommy got to do it just now.. cause tok ada meeting.. fuihh.. berpeluh2 saya dibuatnya! hehehe.. and ammar decided to poo once ive done everything.. so there goes another round! hehhe...

anyway, ive signed up for CFA next june.. hopefully i can squeeze studying time between being a wife, mommy, daughter and also work!!! pleaseeee pray for me.. ammar, we've done this before baby... it's just now you are outside... rather than inside mommy kicking me while im studying! hhehe.. we can do it, kay! and this time mommy can makan ubat tido malam before exam! not like last time...

orite.. i think i have to stop and resume to my mommy chores! toodalooooo......

The Arrival of Ammar Marwan

2007-09-23T13:59:00.001+01:00